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whole being with delight.-And then again the leaf was turned, and so on at every turning came a new picture; and I lay there entranced gazing at them. shall I forget this book. Bel. And you remember these pictures now?

Never

Mal. I have described the two which impressed me most. I never can forget them. I shall never hear any symphony, even of Beethoven, played by the perfectest orchestra, that will ever come up to that. Good heavens! could I only have written it down. Do you know that I would not give up that experience of fever for many a day of tame life. I came out of it a different being.

Bel. Did you in that fever have any such sensation as I once or twice have heard described, of being two persons?

Mal. Exactly. I was for a week two persons. Of course I took no cognisance of time. Night and day were one, and I was sweeping down for a time, as it seemed to me, over a glassy slope, where there was no hold. At last I reached a landing, and then I became two persons. I used to tell my watchers, when they came to my bedside, to turn over one, for he was uncomfortable, and let the other remain as he was; and they often spoke to me of this afterwards. And this reminds me of another experience, which I mention as curious. I used, as a boy, to have nightmares of a singular kind, and this was one of them. I saw a single spot of light far off in the distance, and as I gazed it began to enlarge and grow into a ring, and from this flew forth other rings, and from each of these others and others and others, until the whole range of vision was of wheeling rings of light that came rushing

down upon me until it seemed as if they would overwhelm me; and then, when it seemed impossible to bear it longer-when they were close upon me-they would suddenly disappear, and all would be blank.

Bel. This was giddiness, I suppose ?

I,

Mal. Yes, I suppose it was; but that was the vision I saw. Now we are on this question, I will tell you another experience I had. I used to dream constantly of being on a smooth slope, on which I could not keep my foothold. Many other persons were there beside me, but all of them walked calmly to and fro, as if they felt no such difficulty. however, ever slipped and slipped towards a terrible precipice that bounded the slope, and over which I knew, if I could not stay myself, I should surely fall. This dream had haunted me for years at intervals. One night it was worse than I was, as usual, sliding slowly towards this awful gulf, which was to be my fate, when in my dream I said to myself, "Life is not worth this torture: I will fling myself down the precipice and over it."

ever.

No sooner had I formed this resolution than I determined to carry it out. Turning round, I rushed towards the precipice as fast as I could, and suddenly the whole vision disappeared. And, what is curious, it never again returned.

Bel. That is indeed strange. Mal. No; it never again returned. That was the end of it. There! I think I have told you enough about myself. Now, if you please, we will go and take our walk. I want a little fresh air after these fevers and nightmares.

Bel. "There are more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in our philosophy."

POESIES FROM ABROAD.

FROM THE SPANISH OF GUSTAVE BECQUER.

I.

WE were together, her eyes were wet,

But her pride was strong, and no tears would fall; And I would not tell her I loved her yet,

And yearned to forgive her all!

So, now that our lives are for ever apart,
She thinks: "Oh! had I but wept that day!"
And I ask in vain of my lonely heart:

"Ah! why did I turn away?"

II.

When you've drunk one draught of this rosy wine,
To set it aside were fitter;

Though the taste is sweet and the scent divine,.
The dregs, alas! are bitter.

So when passion and youth shall have passed away,
Would we feel no sting, no sorrow,-
Oh, my dear, let us madly love to-day,
But say good-bye to-morrow!

FROM THE GERMAN OF H. HEINE.

She has given a ring to me, knowing
It was meant for another than me,
Yet from her dear eyes there are flowing
Bright tears that come fast and free.

I have taken her ring, and unspoken
Is my thought of another more fair;
Of a ring, and a faith that are broken
Yet I laugh out aloud in despair.

"AN APPEAL."

(AFTER SULLY PRUDHOMME.)

Ah! could you see me weep in anguish sore
By the sad hearth I dare not call a home,
Sometimes, I think, dear
one, before my door

Would you not come?

Could you but guess my joy when your eyes meet
My wearied eyes in one divinest glance,
Up at my window you would look, my sweet,
As if by chance.

If to my wounded heart you knew the balm
Of sympathy, and love that has no guile,
Under my porch,-a sister sweet and calm,
You'd rest awhile.

Ah! darling, if you knew I loved, and how,
A love so great and pure your love must win
Perhaps you'd lift the latch,-yes, even now,
And come within!

"ALONE."

(AFTER SULLY PRUDHOMME.)

Our deepest joy in silence flows,
Like some pure stream, unseen, apart;
What lover tells the bliss he knows?
His mistress only reads his heart.

O well-known tread of lightest feet!
O lips more red than June's red rose!

O sighs and kisses passing sweet!

Words that are neither verse nor prose!

What tenderest rhyme, what thrilling tone
Might speak of you, nor do you wrong?

Ah! happy ones Love makes his own!
Small need have you of lyre or gong!

But he, who all in vain must wait
For arms that fold, or lip that clings,
Will grasp a lute inanimate,

And pour his soul out on its strings;

For glory's fading wreath he lives,
And, to the callous world, and chill,
Fragments of the sad heart he gives
That one great love may never fill.

A PARTING."

(AFTER SULLY PRUDHOMME.)

Why, no, I should not have told you, dear,
But I could not keep back one traitor tear,

It has fallen,-see, on your little hand,—
So the burning confession is written clear,
In letters you cannot but understand.

And our laughter, and dancing of footsteps fleet
Are gone with the joy of the spring-tide sweet;
I tremble, your blushes come and go,-

We cannot meet as we used to meet,

We cannot be friends as of old, I know.

But perhaps our hearts, in their love new-born

(Like two birds in their nest in that pale pink thorn),
Have their wings still weak, and their songs unsung;

For fear they should fly on the morrow morn,
Oh! tear them asunder, they still are young!

Oh! part them ere ever they learn to fly,
Lest in some dark future,-like you and I,—
They may hunger and yearn for each other again;
And through dreary vistas of earth and sky,
Go wearily seeking,—in vain, in vain!

AFFINITY.

(AFTER TH. GAUTIER.)

In an old-world temple two blocks of stone,
Where the sky of Athens burns hotly blue,
Have been standing stately, and still, and lone,
Dreaming together the ages through.

There were two pearls hid in the self-same shell
(Like sweet sea-tears that for Venus weep);
They have whispered secrets that none may tell,
Side by side in the heart of the deep.

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When Boabdil ruled in the land of Spain.
Two roses grew in a garden rare;
They drank of the fountain's silver rain,
And mingled their scents in the drowsy air,

In Venice, to rest on a golden dome,

Two doves came floating on pinions white;
And they loved each other, and made their home,
Under the stars on a still May night.

But the changeless laws that our lives involve,
Are the laws of Death, and cold decay;
So the temple falls, and the pearls dissolve,—
The birds and the roses must pass away.

Yet each, by a strange metamorphosis

Is born anew in some fairer form;

So the rose may live in red lips that kiss,—
The marble in limbs that are white and warm.

And in hearts of lovers once more may greet
Those doves who dwelt on the dome of gold;
And in mouths of velvet the pearls may meet
To gleam more white than those pearls of old.

For how otherwise grew the wondrous birth
Of the strange and sweet affinity,
That warns two souls in this desert of earth,
They must claim each other where'er they be?

They recall, in a new-found ecstasy,
The dreams of their mystic Long-ago;
By the marble temple, or stormy sea,
Or Moorish garden where roses blow.

And they feel the flutter of snowy wings

On the golden dome of a stately fane ;And the faithful atoms the wild wind brings Must find each other, and love again!

So, my heart that within me burns and glows,
Would read your heart, and ask, you whether
You were pearl, or marble, or dove, or rose,

In that fairer world, when we were together?

FLORENCE HENNIKER.

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