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arguments or his talents had a- longing to philosophy or literny effect. And without deign- ature. There lived but one ing to reply to him, they yot- person near him, who was at ed almost unanimously to call at all qualified for such an ina pious young man to the

tercouse as he would gladly charge of their congregation, cultivate. But that person whom their late pastor had was his hated minister! How earnestly recommended as his

many pangs and struggles successor,

would agitate his mind at the Need I describe the sullen- thought of this circumstance ! ness, the malice, the disap- How often would he inwardly pointment which disfigured the murmur that his imaginary foe countenance of this incendia- united to the advantages of a ry? He retired home to wreak public education the worthlesson his family that vindictive ness of piety. “Perhaps,” he humour to which his fellowe would say to himself, “this citizens in public were impen- priest might solve many diffia etrable. He forbade their at- culties which nature presents tendance on the ordination, and before me. Perhaps he could commanded them never to ap- enlarge and improve my mind pear at meeting Strange is by communicating the results the inconsistency of man! He, of his studies on some of my whose sole God was reason, favourite subjects. But shall and who pretended that he I undergo the mortification of could overthrow the whole retracting ? Shall I court his system of religion by argu- acquaintance? Shall I be on ment, was unable to obtain a. terms of friendship with mong the meanest of his de- priest ?" He lost sight of his pendants a single proselyte, virtues, his knowledge, his inand was obliged almost 10 re- nocence and worth, and he sort to physical force in order thought only of the character to ensure their outward ac- that he had gathered from quicscence in his wishes and books, heightened and aggraopimions!

vated by the ribaldry of Paine, Nature, as I before intima and the workings of his own ted, had given Mr. Evanson a dark imagination. mind of a respectable order. These two persons would of He had been early fond of course sometimes encounter books, and was habituated to each other in society. The reflection on certain subjects, marks of deference, untinged respecting which his prejudi- by the least particle of superces had not been unhappily stition, which were constantly excited. He could be agrec- paid to the clergyman, could able in conversation. He could not but excite the uneasiness contribute amusement and in- and envy of his unaccountable forination. He was himself enemy. And yet Mr. Evan. delighted to Icarn. But he son's good sense would often was situated in a wilderness, make him perceive the invalựi -as it respected everything be able influence which the pas



was a

tor exercised over his flock. of the church, and the prevaAmidst æ society of labourers, lence of more correct and enand mechanics, and tradesmen, larged conceptions respecting he saw one person at least who the institutions of the gospel, could think and study for the the priesthood of modern times others. There was a guide for are wholly unlike the priestconversation; there was hood of ecclesiastical history, authority in disputes ; there Besides, age was now creeping source of information ;

on apace ; the flush and the there was an example of de. self-importance of maturity portment, all united in that one had subsided; the world aperson; and yet no assump- bout him seemed bereft of that tjon of superiority, no inter- stamp of eternity and undecayference in debate, no vanity of ing vigour, which the concommunication, and no author- sciousness of his own strength ity of demeanour, to shock, or had formerly lent to it; the disgust, or repulse. Thus the pride of reason had too often idea of the priest would often been checked and mortified momentarily slide out of Mr. still to believe itself omnipoEvanson's mind, and he would tent, he felt his own helpnessthink that he was listening on- ness; he would cling to some ly to the gentleman and the higher power if he could; he scholar, and if he brought would cultivate an intercourse malice and hatred along with with the unseen world, with him, he certainly carried some the Maker of his frame;' but, knowledge and gratification a- who shall be the medium way.

who shall relieve that cloud of Nearly in this posițion did distressing doubts, which had circumstances remain for sey- so long darkened his soul, who

The pastor grew shall meet all his blasphemous stronger in the affections of his scruples, and crush them? who flock, his usefulness among shall vindicate for him the them increased, and his fame ways of God to man, and lead extended more and

him in the way which is everthrough all the surrounding lasting ? He knew of but one churches. Time and reflec- person, whose manner of life, tion likewise gradually smooth whose education, whose expe. ed away many of the rough rience, whose course of thinkparts of the infidel's character. ing, whose character, render. He saw that the most princi- ed him a proper confident in pied men were in general the this trying season. Oh, how inost religious; he witnessed huinbled were his feelings ! the different effects of his own But the complacency of his mode of bringing up his chil- most intoxicated pride had dren and that of his pious never given him any thing neighbours in bringing up like the sweet satisfaction theirs. Especially, he had op- . which that humility imparted portunity to observe, that ow- now. He sought the society ing to different circumstances of him, whom he had lons

cral years.




shunned, he scarcely knew tions; and when he looked why, and long had reproached, upon the small sphere around he almost knew not how. He him, he had no reason to doubt was received, as if he had that the same exertions were been a friend for life. His equally efficacious on the exfeelings were entered into at perience of his friends and once ; his doubts were antici- neighbours. He saw much pated and met; his views were happiness flowing from the cleared up and widened by the ministrations of the sanctuary; patient reasoning and the en- he saw life there under its lightened representations of best and noblest forms, and he one, who had made such sub- saw as well as felt the most jects the themes of his morn- ' undeniable and manifest ima ing, noon, and evening con- provement of character arising templations. Life now began from the preaching of one to appear in different colours

He had therefore a to our former infidel. His right to conclude that such heart had a feeling quite were the excellent effects of strange to it; it was as if a the labours of the enlightened tide of benevolence had gush- clergy throughout the chrised in and driven away the tur

tian world. bid humours which had

By the united misfortune long stagnated there. In the and fraud of a friend for whom mean time, he did not forget he had become responsible to to whom, by the blessing of a large amount, he saw very heaven, he was indebted for nearly the whole of his estate the happy change that had ta- seized and conveyed from his ken place in his character ; possession. In declining years, and he maintained no and with a large family around that ministers were useless him, he could not but feel this appendages to society.” stroke severely. Indeed, ac

Henceforth he became the cording to his own confession, constant frequenter of public his sensations would have been worship. In consequence, he stung to madness, had it not grew more and more attached been for the mild interposito one, who led his devotions, tion and heavenly advice, and who directed his thoughts to sweet consolations which were proper subjects of religious lent him by his minister. With meditations, who taught him what peculiar effect did lesespecially how to think, and sons of fortitude and resignawho, by showing him from tion now come from one, who time to time, the workings of was himself never immersed in the human heart, and the face the cares and perplexities and ulties of the human soul, com- worldliness of this mortal life ! municated to him the invalua- How disinterested his sympable arts of self-knowledge, and thy! How powerful his exhorself-government. This he tations ! \Vho but a person tofound in his own case to be tally separated from the toilthe effect of pulpit ministra- some routine and the strug


tive wc

gles of rivalry in which the er of religion, can imagine the majority of mankind are invol- mitigations which were pour. ved, could so well command ed into it, by the voice of one, the unfortunate bondsman to whose sole business it was, set his thoughts and affections like his master, to go about rather on things above than on doing good. In a word, the things on the earth? The conversation of a priest healperson, whose simple narra- ed the very despair which

are relating, felt this, could trace its origin up to the and had reason to bless hea. mistaken hatred of priests, ven for the institution of a But this was not all. Не christian priesthood.

had a daughter to whom he This person had a son, for looked to smooth and soften whom his heart felt more than the pillow of his age by her the usual fondness of a father. cares, and to perfume it by Every gift of genius, many her virtues. She was to him splendid virtues, and many of a jewel of excellence, a flower the milder attractions belong- of beauty--his pride and his ed to his character, But long idol, and the charm of his exbefore his reason opened, he istence. But the tomb claimhad become a convert to his ed her, and left himno, not father's infidelity. The seeds desolate. The common friend were sown too early and too of both remained behind. He deep to be rooted up at please remained behind, who, as he

The conversion of the wiped away his own tears, parent was not accompanied taught the bereaved father by by the conversion of the child. example, as well as by precepty Irreligion was too strongly for- the art of religious consolation. tified by passion, by youthful How weighty, how forcible, confidence, by the pride of o- how efficacious, came that conpening reason, and by the sar- solation from the mouth of the castic vigilance of gay com

minister of God! From him, panions, to resign its posses- who professed to stand as a sion of the young man's soul. link between the seen and the The life he had led, was a unseen worlds! Had no other practical commentary on the circumstance occurred to relessons and example he had concile Mr. Evanson to our received. At the loss of his clergyman, yet that reconcilifather's property, he plunged ation must have taken place deeper into excesses, His inevitably, in consequence of vices were not checked, they the devout and sympathetic only became meaner, and his supplication offered up to the father saw too plainly that he God of all grace and consowas irrevocably given up to Jation, on the day that his ruin. Few can imagine the daughter was consigned to the agonies of recollection and an- grave.

The most hardened ticipation which thus harrass. infidel opens his ear to the ed the old man's soul. And voice from

the sanctuary, sow, who have not felt the pow. whesorrow and crushed ten.'


derness have closed it upon lone together for an hour. the world.

The whole family were then We have but one scene more called in, and after a solemn, in which to present these two and pathetic address, in which persons togother. It was the he bade them farewell, and dying scene. It is here that bequeathed to them the richthe most brilliant triumphs of est treasures of advice, these the ministers of religion are were the last words he ever displayed. What would have uttered : “ And above all, you been Mr. Evanson's departing will exercise an undiminished horrors, if his hand had not and perpetual reverence for been pressed, nor his dying the ministers of religion. Had palpitations watched, nor his it not been for him who now despair allayed, by the very stands at the side of my man whom he once shuddered bed to encounter? They were a.

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vinced me that my immoderBy inserting the following ate sorrow was folly and imin your very interesting and piety. I have tried to convaluable miscellany, you will quer my affliction, and submit afford comfort, I doubt not, to to the will of Heaven. My many hearts, and will satisfy loss is not uncommon, and more than

those reasons which have been of so much use to me, may

possibly, in the like case, afI HAVE been sometime a ford comfort to others. I send widow, but when Heaven took them to you that they may be away my husband, he left me communicated to the public. one comfort, a child, a daugh. The office you assume, deter, to moderate the sorrows mands of you every action of of my condition. She reached humanity, and none can be her twentieth year, and was, more truly so than to comfort what for me to say, woull be the afflicted, and calm the store supposed to be a mother's my soul to peace. I am, &c. fondness; let others praise her ; my life was wrapt up in MADAM, her, nor was her duteous re- Your daughter is not dead. turn of gratitude less than my You have not lost her. She affection. I have lost her; has gone before you to her nadeath has torn her froin my live country, whither yourself

For two months I was must shortly follow. Then inconsolable, my tears flowed why those streaming eyes, incessantly, and, like Rachel, those vain laments, those agI refused to be comforted A onies of woe ? Can you recal kind, unknown friend sent me her, or would you if you could? the enclosed letter which con. Consider calmly, had



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