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can be—that is, in myself; I should be happier if Tom were well, and if I knew you were passing pleasant days. Then I should be most enviablewith the yearning passion I have for the beautiful connected and made one with the ambition of my intellect. Think of my pleasures in solitude in comparison with my commerce with the world: there I am a child; there they do not know me, not even my most intimate acquaintance. I give into their feelings as though I were refraining from imitating a little child. Some think me meddling, others silly, others foolish; every one thinks he sees my weak side against my will, when in truth it is with my will. I am content to be thought all this, because I have in my own breast so great a resource. This is one great reason they like me so, because they can all show to advantage in a room, and eclipse (from a certain tact) one who is reckoned to be a good poet. I hope I am not here playing tricks" to make the angels weep." I think not, for I have not the least contempt for my species; and though it may sound paradoxical, my greatest elevations of soul leave me every time more humbled. Enough of this, though in your love for me you will not think it enough.

Tom is rather more easy than he has been, but is still so nervous that I cannot speak to him of you; indeed, it is the care I have had to keep his mind aloof from feelings too acute that has made this letter so rambling. I did not like to write before him a letter he knew was to reach your hands; I cannot even now ask him for any message; his heart speaks to you.

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