mother, brothers and sisters, all weeping. My grandfather, who was seventy years of age, with a long white beard, placed his hands on our heads, and, with tears trickling from his eyes, pronounced a blessing; some of the words I have not forgotten, although so many years since. The words were these, “May the God of our fathers Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, bless and preserve you, protect and defend you from all harm, keep you in His fear, help you to study His laws, strengthen you to obey Him, nor suffer you to forsake Him." The last words were these, "If you forsake the Lord, He will forsake you; but, if you cleave to Him, He will cleave to you." They then kissed us all affectionately, wishing us the presence of the Lord, and bid us farewell. Now began the prophecy of my grandmother to be fulfilled, that I should forsake the Jewish religion. My spiritual birth was appointed by God to be in London: place, means, and time are all by his Divine appointment. His will cannot be counteracted, nor his counsels disannulled: "My counsel shall stand, and I will do all my pleasure." As London was to be the place, so death and hell could not obstruct the way. O! the depth of the riches, both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out."

But to return, we left home at midnight, disguised in female clothing, a banker's only son, my brother, and myself. A kind of chaise, with two horses belonging to the banker, and four men, were waiting outside the town, to convey us to a village, fifteen miles from the town, joining the Prussian territories, to the house of a Gentile, where were waiting twelve men, with guns and pistols, to escort into Prussia, which at that place is separated from Russia by a deep valley. This valley was watched by Cossacks; about every five miles there was a cottage or kind of station, from which stations they rode to and fro. The people of the village had a perfect knowledge of the movements of these patrols; when one had passed, there was about an half-hour's interval, which time we embraced for crossing the valley. Here time might not be lost, as the danger was very great. If these patrols overtook any person, and resistance was made, they were allowed to shoot them dead on the spot.

We left our female clothing at the cottage before mentioned, and prepared to encounter the danger of which we were sensible. As we advanced towards the valley, two men of our company were previously placed on the look out, when, at their signal, we had to run as fast as possible; but we three boys with fright

and fatigue, could not run as fast as the rest, therefore we were sometimes carried, and sometimes dragged. After we had crossed the valley, there was a small mountain to climb, when arrived at the top we were safe, which we scarcely reached, when we saw a patrol galloping on his horse after us, as fast as he could, but was just about three minutes too late. On the Prussian side, there were six men waiting for us with a waggon and fire-arms; when they saw us on the top, they all cried with one voice, "all right; " and great was our joy, as it was the first time we had heard a voice since we left the cottage, being compelled to cross the valley without speaking. While writing, methinks I can see myself in the valley running; sometimes falling down, sometimes dragged by one, and then by another. Thus my pilgrimage began with danger, and is still encompassed with the same; being in an enemy's land, I had to watch then; but much more now, as the danger is greater, the greatest enemies being within. Well may the Son of God say, "What I say unto you, I say unto all, watch." It is no small mercy to be kept from carnal security and false peace. That covenant God who has delivered me, doth deliver and I trust will continue to the end.

Thus, dear reader, I have traced the cause of my leaving the land of my nativity, not to return again, and my arrival on the borders of Prussia. We will now proceed on our journey to Konigsburg. We remained that night at the first village in Prussia, in the house of one of those Prussian men who were waiting for us. It is true, we all three went to bed in one room, but we had no sleep, there was a candle burning in the room, and we were talking during the remainder of the night. Now and then a secret tear stole from our eyes; again one would burst into a flood of tears, and the others follow. On the one hand, we were leaving affectionate and weeping parents and friends, and on the other we had to face an unknown world. These things would alternately pass, and repass in our minds; sometimes we encouraged each other by saying, we were young, and we will go to England, and make our fortunes. Thus passed the first night.

The next morning we were conveyed to a small town; the man took us to an inn where my dear father was accustomed to put up, and was well known. We had letters of recommend tion from my father and grandfather; so also had the young man with us from his relatives. This little town was a place

where the Russian and Polish Jew merchants used to resort; it being situated on the borders of both kingdoms. At this inn there were two merchants going to Memel; seeing us youths respectable looking, they enquired from whence we came, and where we were going; we told them, and showed them our letters. One directly replied that he knew my father well, and had heard of my grandfather. We also told them that we had no passport, and that we were going to Konigsburg to an uncle of my mother's, with the expectation that he would get us a passport to England. After this conversation he left us for a couple of hours, and then returned, and told us it was dangerous to travel without a passport; and that if we would go with him to Memel. he would take care of us, and see us safe to Konigsburg. We thanked him, and were very pleased to accept such a benevolent offer. With this he immediately set off to the Burgomaster, and had our names inserted on his passport as his servants. When he returned and told us, our spirits were raised, as we were quite out of danger. Through the kindly aid of this merchant we arrived safe at my uncle's at Konigsburg; leaving, by the advice of my father, my brother at Memel. Having obtained a passport, through the interest of my uncle, Israel and I (this was the young man's name) left Konigsburg on foot, for Frankfort-on-the-Oder, in which place we stayed a fortnight. It is the custom for all strangers who enter the town to stay one night, or more, to deliver their passports to the Burgomaster, and when they leave, it is returned to them. When we called for our passports, the Burgomaster addressed himself to me, saying, I must return to my native country, as I was a runaway, and specified on my passport to that effect; at the same time Israel received his passport to enable him to pursue his journey. This news so terrified me that I could say nothing; but after I left the office I charged my companion with informing against me, and he confessed that he had done so the day before. Thus we parted, and I told him that his sin would find him out, and that God would punish him, as I was the means of getting him his passport; and in the end it was so, he committed suicide a few years afterwards in London. The thought of returning home by myself, and the treachery of my companion, filled me with such horror and distress, that for a whole day I neither ate nor drank, and did nothing but cry. Having my phylacteries and Hebrew prayer-book with me, also remembering the advice of my grand

father, I prayed to the God of Israel to support, strengthen, and deliver me, as I was young, and in a strange country. This going back reminds me of my spiritual pilgrimage. Sometimes

I feel that I am advancing in the divine life, pressing homeward towards the heavenly Canaan; while at other times, alas, I feel I am going backward, and have to go over the same ground step by step, mourning as I go, by reason of sin and darkness of soul. The holy apostle had to go to Rome to preach the everlasting Gospel; and although his journey was rough, yet he arrived safely. This was my case; I had to preach the everlasting Gospel in England, therefore nothing could hinder; Satan is permitted to do many things, but the Lord works all for the good of His people.

But to return; through the covenant mercy of my God, I again reached my uncle's, at Konigsburg; who at the sight of me was greatly surprised. He told me to be easy, as he would get me another passport, which he did. I then stayed with my uncle a month, after which I informed him that I should like to proceed on my journey towards England. He advised me to go to Dantzic by water; kindly paid my fare, and provided me with every necessary for my journey.

There is a certain path we must tread, ordered by the God of Providence. Mine was to be a trying one, therefore I could not escape appointed trouble any more by sea than by land. On crossing the gulf of Dantzic we encountered a violent storm; the vessel was loaded with wheat, which was all obliged to be cast into the sea: the main mast and rudder were destroyed, and the captain discovered a leak in the vessel, so that sailors and passengers had to pump alternately, day and night, expecting every moment to sink. There were a great number of adult passengers of both sexes, and some children, whose cries and lamentations were heart-rending; they were all strangers to me, and I had to keep my peculiar grief to myself. The captain told us there was no hope of our escape, we must perish. The signal of distress was hoisted. One night we were informed that a vessel was approaching us, which afforded no small joy; but, alas, it was but short, it was a mistake. The next morning the captain told us that we were drawing near to a port, where we should most likely meet with vessels: the same day a vessel came to our assistance, and all the passengers were taken on board. When we got on board we began to feel the effects of fright and want of food; many, with myself, were very ill; but

at length arrived safely at Dantzic. The day after we arrived at Dantzic, I heard that the vessel had sunk. Here again I have cause to erect an Ebenezer unto my covenant God and Father who once more plucked me like a brand from that abyss where hope never cometh.

My dear reader, since I was quickened by the Spirit of God, my soul has had to encounter many storms. Often am I tossed with tempests, and not comforted; sometimes with the storms of indwelling sin and corruption; sometimes with doubts and fears, almost despairing of life. At other times with darkness, and the hidings of God's countenance, shut up and cannot come forth. Sometimes with presumption and pride, which makes me exclaim, "Save me, O God, for the waters are come into my soul, I sink in deep mire, where there is no standing, I am come into deep waters, where the floods overflow me. How distressing is it to a living soul, when he cannot feel his standing upon the Rock of eternal ages, and no promise applied by the Spirit of God to the soul. These things I have to experience; tossed sometimes by the north wind, and at other times by the south. But hitherto hath the Lord helped me, blessed be His name!

I stayed in Dantzic a month. I resolved to see a little of the country, instead of taking a direct course to England. Having heard of Leipsic, I made up my mind to go there, and proceeded thither on foot. My journey to Leipsic made an impression on my mind never to be forgotten. Arriving one Friday afternoon at a small town, to spend the Sabbath (Saturday), as it is prohibited to travel on that day, I went in the evening to the synagogue, and met a very kind reception by my brethren Jews. One, a very rich man, the head of the synagogue, invited me to spend the Sabbath with him. The next day, among other conversation, he enquired where I was going. I told him to Leipsic. He then said if I would stay until Monday, which was market day, I could cross a river, as there were vessels plying to and fro which would save me a day's journey. I thanked him, and took his advice. On the Monday evening I proceeded to the water side, and took my place in a vessel. There were only a few very rough fellows in the vessel, and they were intoxicated. The men, seeing by my dress that I was a Jew and a foreigner, began first to tease and then illuse me; they at last resolved to throw me into the river, and they would have done so had it not been for the interference of the manager. When we arrived on the other side, we got out, and they all walked off and left me. I felt too ill to