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sured ; and they enjoy the benefit for whom And I could wish, if it might be avoided the benefit was intended. Hence have I, for without making ill will between Mr Lovelace some time past, employed myself in penning and my executor, that the former might not be down heads of such a disposition ; which, as permitted to see my corpse. But if, as he is a reasons offered, I have altered and added to, so man very uncontrollable, and as I am nobody's, that I never was absolutely destitute of a will, he insist upon viewing her dead, whom he once had I been taken off ever so suddenly. These before saw in a manner dead, let his gay curiminutes and imperfect sketches enabled me, as osity be gratified. Let him behold, and triumph God has graciously given me time and sedate- over the wretched remains of one who has been ness, to digest them into the form in which they made a victim to his barbarous perfidy; but let appear."

some good person, as by my desire, give him a

paper, whilst he is viewing the ghastly specta1, Clarissa Harlowe, now, by strange, me- cle, containing these few words only,—“Gay, lancholy accidents, lodging in the parish of St cruel heart! behold here the remains of the Paul, Covent-Garden, being of sound and per- once ruined, yet now happy, Clarissa Harlowe! fect mind and memory, as I hope these presents, -See what thou thyself must quickly be drawn up by myself, and written with my own and REPENT !"hand, will testify, do, [this second day of Sep. Yet, to shew that I die in perfect charity tember, *) in the year of our Lord- -st with all the world, I do most sincerely forgive make and publish this my last will and testa- Mr Lovelace the wrongs he has done me. ment, in manner and form following:

If my father can pardon the errors of his unIn the first place, I desire that my body may worthy child, so far as to suffer her corpse to be lie unburied three days after my decease, or till deposited at the feet of her grandfather,

as above the pleasure of my father may be known con- requested, I could wish (my misfortunes being cerning it. But the occasion of my death not so notorious,) that a short discourse be proadmitting of doubt, I will not, on any account, nounced over my remains, before they be inthat it be opened ; and it is my desire, that it terred. The subject of the discourse I shall deshall not be touched but by those of my own sex. termine before I conclude this writing.

I have always earnestly requested, that my body might be deposited in the family vault So much written about what deserves not the least with those of my ancestors. If it might be consideration, and about what will be nothing granted, I could now wish, that it might be when this writing comes to be opened and read, placed at the feet of my dear and honoured will be excused, when my present unhappy grandfather. But as I have, by one very un- circumstances and absence from all my natuhappy step, been thought to disgrace my whole ral friends are considered. lineage, and therefore this last honour may be refused to my corpse; in this case my desire is, And now, with regard to the worldly matthat it may be interred in the churchyard be- ters which I shall die possessed of, as well as to longing to the parish in which I shall die ; and those which of right appertain to me, either by that in the most private manner, between the the will of my said grandfather, or otherwise"; hours of eleven and twelve at night ; attended thus do I dispose of them. only by Mrs Lovick, and Mr and Mrs Smith, In the first place, I give and bequeath all the and their maid-servant.

real estates in or to which I have any claim or But it is my desire, that the same fees and title by the said will, to my ever-honoured fadues may be paid which are usually paid for ther, James Harlowe, Esq. and that rather than those who are laid in the best ground, as it is to my brother and sister, to whom I had once called, or even in the chancel.- And I bequeath thoughts of devising them, because, if they surfive pounds to be given, at the discretion of the vive my father, those estates will assuredly vest church-wardens, to twenty poor people, the in them, or one of them, by virtue of his faSunday after my interment; and this whether vour and indulgence, as the circumstances of I shall be buried here or elsewhere.

things with regard to marriage-settlements, or I have already given verbal directions, that, otherwise, may require ; or, as they respecafter I am dead, (and laid out in the manner 1 tively merit by the continuance of their duty. have ordered,) I may be put into my coffin as The house, late my grandfather's, called The soon as possible ; it is my desire, that I may not Grove, and by him, in honour of me, and of be unnecessarily exposed to the view of any- some of my voluntary employments, my Dairybody; except any of my relations should vouch- house, and the furniture thereof as it now stands, safe, for the last time, to look upon me. (the pictures and large iron chest of old plate

A blank at the writing, was left for this date, and filled up on this day. See Letter CCCLXXV. of this Volume.

+ The date of the year is left blank for particular reasons.

excepted,) I also bequeath to my said father ; death ; and that his account of such sums shall only begging it as a favour that he will be plea- likewise be taken without questioning; the mosed to permit my dear Mrs Norton to pass the ney, however, which I left behind me in my remainder of her days in that house; and to escritoire, being to be taken in part of those have and enjoy the apartments in it known by disbursements. the name of The Housekeeper's Apartments, My grandfather, who, in his goodness and with the furniture in them; and which, (plain favour to me, knew no bounds, was pleased to and neat,) was bought for me by my grandfa- bequeath to me all the family pictures at his ther, who delighted to call me his house-keep- late house, some of which are very masterly er; and which, therefore, in his life-time, I performances; with command, that if I died used as such ; the office to go with the apart- unmarried, or if married and had no descendments. And I am the more earnest in this re- ants, they should then go to that son of his, (if commendation, as I had once thought to have more than one should be then living,) whom I been very happy there with the good woman ; should think would set most value by them. and because I think her prudent management Now, as I know that my honoured uncle, John will be as beneficial to my father, as his favour Harlowe, Esq. was pleased to express some concan be convenient to her.

cern that they were not left to him, as eldest But with regard to what has accrued from son ; and as he has a gallery where they may that estate, since my grandfather's death, and be placed to advantage ; and as I have reason to the sum of nine hundred and seventy pounds, to believe that he will bequeath them to my which proved to be the moiety of the money father, if he survive him, who, no doubt, will that my said grandfather had by him at his leave them to my brother, I therefore bequeath death, and which moiety he bequeathed to me all the said family pictures to my said uncle, for my sole and separate use, Čas he did the John Harlowe. In these pictures, however, I other moiety in like manner to my sister ;*] include not my own, drawn when I was about and which sum, (that I might convince my fourteen years of age; which I shall hereafter brother and sister that I wished not for an in- in another article bequeath. dependence upon my father's pleasure,) I gave My said honoured grandfather having a great into my father's hands, together with the ma- fondness for the old family plate, which he would nagement and produce of the whole estate de- never permit to be changed, having lived, as he vised to me--these sums, however considerable used to say, to see a great deal of it come into when put together, I hope I may be allowed to request again in the revolution of fashions; and <lispose of absolutely, as my love and my grati- having left the same to me, with a command to tude (not confined only to my own family, keep it entire ; and with power at my death to which is very wealthy in all its branches,) may bequeath it to whomsoever I pleased that I warrant; and which therefore I shall dispose thought would forward his desire ; which was, of in the manner hereafter mentioned. But it as he expresses it, that it should be kept to the is my will and express direction, that my

fa- end of time; this family plate, which is depother's account of the above-mentioned produce sited in a large iron chest, in the strong room may be taken and established absolutely, (and at his late dwelling-house, I bequeath entire to without contravention or question,) as he shall my honoured uncle, Antony Harlowe, Esq. with be pleased to give it to my cousin Morden, or the same injunctions which were laid on me; to whom else he shall choose to give it; so as not doubting but he will confirm and strengththat the said account be not subject to litiga- en them by his own last will. tion, or to the control of my executor, or of any I bequeath to my ever-valued friend, Mrs

Judith Norton, to whose piety and care, secondMy father, of his love and bounty, was plea- ing the piety and care of my ever-honoured and sed to allow me the same quarterly sums that excellent mother, I owe, morally speaking, the he allowed my sister for apparel and other re- qualifications which, for eighteen years of my quisites; and (pleased with me then,) used to life, made me beloved and respected, the full say, that those sums should not be deducted sum of six hundred pounds, to be paid her from the estate and effects bequeathed to me by within three months after my death. my grandfather ; but having mortally offended I bequeath also to the same good woman thi him, (as I fear it may be said,) by one unhap- ty guineas, for mourning for her and for her py step, it may be expected that he will reim- son, my foster-brother. burse himself those sums--it is therefore my To Mrs Dorothy Hervey, the only sister of will and direction, that he shall be allowed to my honoured mother, I bequeath the sum of pay and satisfy himself for all such quarterly fifty guineas for a ring; and I beg of her to acor other sums, which he was so good as to ad- cept of my thankful acknowledgments for all vance me from the time of my grandfather's her goodness to me from my infancy; and par

other person.

* Sce Letter XIII. Vol. VI.

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ticularly for her patience with me, in the seve- to her beloved daughter; and of a ring of tweni-
ral altercations that happened between my bro- ty-five guineas price.
ther and sister and me, before my unhappy de- My picture at full length, which is in my late
parture from Harlowe-Place.

grandfather's closet, (excepted in an article above To my kind and much-valued cousin, Miss from the family pictures,) drawn when I was Dolly Hervey, daughter of my aunt Hervey, I near fourteen years of age ; about which time bequeath my watch and equipage, and my best my dear Miss Howe and I began to know, to Mechlin and Brussels head-dresses and ruffles; distinguish, and to love one another so dearly also my gown and petticoat of flowered silver I cannot express how dearly-I bequeath to of my own work ; which having been made up that sister of my heart ; of whose friendship, as but a few days before I was confined to my well in adversity as prosperity, when I was dechamber, I never wore.

prived of all other comfort and comforters, I To the same young lady I bequeath likewise have had such instances, as that our love can my harpsichord, my chamber-organ, and all my only be exceeded in that state of perfection, in music-books.

which I hope to rejoice with her hereafter, to all As my sister has a very pretty library; and eternity. as my beloved Miss Howe has also her late fa- I bequeath also to the same dear friend my ther's as well as her own; I bequeath all my best diamond ring, which, with other jewels, is books in general, with the cases they are in, to in the private drawer of my escritoire ; as also my said cousin, Dolly Hervey. As they are not all my finished and framed pieces of needleill-chosen for a woman's library, I know that work; the flower-piece excepted, which I have she will take the greater pleasure in them, already bequeathed to my cousin Morden. (when her friendly grief is mellowed by time These pieces have all been taken down, as I into a remembrance more sweet than painful,) have heard ;* and my relations will have no because they were mine; and because there are heart to put them up again ; but if my good observations in many of them of my own wri- mother chooses to keep back any one piece, (the ting; and some very judicious ones, written above capital piece, as it is called, excepted,) by the truly reverend Ďr Lewen.

not knowing but sometime hence she may bear I also bequeath to the same young lady, twen- the sight of it; I except that also from this gety-five guineas for a ring, to be worn in remem- neral bequest; and direct it to be presented to brance of her true friend.

her. If I live not to see my worthy cousin, Wil- My whole-length picture in the Vandyke liam Morden, Esq. I desire my humble and taste;t that used to hang in my own parlour, grateful thanks may be given to him for his fa- as I was permitted to call it, I bequeath to my vours and goodness to me; and particularly for aunt Hervey, except my mother should think his endeavours to reconcile my other friends to fit to keep it herself. me, at a time when I was doubtful whether he I bequeath to the worthy Charles Hickman, would forgive me himself. As he is in great Esq. the locket, with the miniature picture of circumstances, I will only beg of him to accept the lady he best loves, which I have constantly of two or three trifles, in remembrance of a worn, and shall continue to wear near my heart kinswoman who always honoured him as much till the approach of my last hour. I It must be as he loved her. Particularly, of that piece of the most acceptable present that can be made flowers which my uncle Robert, his father, was him, next to the hand of the dear original. very earnest to obtain, in order to carry it abroad 'And, O my dear Miss Howe, let it not be long with him.

before you permit his claim to the latter-for I desire him likewise to accept of the little indeed you know not the value of a virtuous miniature picture set in gold, which his worthy mind in that sex; and how preferable such a father made me sit for to the famous Italian mind is to one distinguislied by the more dazmaster whom he brought over with him ; and zling flights of unruly wit; although the latter which he presented to me, that I might bestow were to be joined by that specious outward apit, as he was pleased to say, upon the man whom pearance which too—too often attracts the hasiy I should be one day most inclined to favour. eye, and susceptible heart."

To the same gentleman I also bequeath my rose diamond ring, which was a present from Permit me, my dear friends, this solemn apos. his good father to me; and will be the more trophe, in this last solemn act, to a young lady valuable to him on that account.

80 deservedly dear to me! I humbly request Mrs Annabella Howe, the mother of my dear Miss Howe, to accept of my I make it my earnest request to my dear Miss respectful thanks for all her favours and good- Howe, that she will not put herself into mournness to me, when I was so frequently a visitor ing for me. But I desire her acceptance of a

See Letter LIV. of this Vol.

+ Ibid.

# See Letter CCCLXXXIII. of this Vol.

ring with my hair;

and that Mr Hickman will (with whom I lodged) from whom also I have also accept of the like ; each of the value of received great kindnesses ; I bequeath all my twenty-five guineas.

linen, and all my unsold laces; to be divided I bequeath to Lady Betty Lawrence, and to equally between them, as they shall agree; or, her sister, Lady Sarah Sadleir, and to the right in case of disagreement, the same to be sold, honourable Lord M. and to their worthy nieces, and the money arising to be equally shared by Miss Charlotte and Miss Martha Montague, them. each an enamelled ring, with a cipher Cl. H. And I bequeath to the same two good wowith my hair in crystal, and round the inside men, as a farther token of my thankful acknowof each, the day, month, and year of my death: ledgments of their kind love and compassionate each ring, with brilliants, to cost twenty gui concern for me, the sum of twenty guineas each. neas. And this as a small token of the grateful To Mr Smith, the husband of Mrs Smith sense I have of the honour of their good opinions above-named, I bequeath the sum of ten guineas, and kind wishes in my favour; and of their in acknowledgment of his civilities to me. truly noble offer to me of a very considerable To Katharine the honest maid-servant of Mrs annual provision, when they apprehended me to Smith, to whom (having no servant of my own) be entirely destitute of any.

I have been troublesome, I bequeath five guiTo the reverend and learned Dr Arthur Lew- neas; and ten guineas more, lieu of a suit of en, by whose instructions I have been equally my wearing apparel, which once, with some delighted and benefited, I bequeath twenty gui- linen, I thought of leaving to her. With this Heas for a ring. If it should please God to call she may purchase what may be more suitable to him to Himself before he can receive this small her liking and degree. bequest, it is my will that his worthy daughter To the honest and careful widow, Anne Shelmay have the benefit of it.

bourne, my nurse, over and above her wages, In token of the grateful sense I have of the and the customary perquisites that may belong civilities paid me by Mrs and Miss Howe's do- to her, I bequeath the sum of ten guineas. inestics, from time to time, in my visits there, Hers is a careful, and (to persons of such huI bequeath thirty guineas, to be divided among manity and tenderness) a melancholy employthem, as their dear young mistress shall think ment, attended in the latter part of life with proper.

great watching and fatigue, which is hardly ever To each of my worthy companions and friends, enough considered. Miss Biddy Lloyd, Miss Fanny Alston, Miss

The few books I have at my present lodgings, Rachel Biddulph, and Miss Cartwright Camp- I desire Mrs Lovick to accept of; and that she bell, I bequeath five guineas for a ring.

be permitted, if she please, to take a copy of To my late maid-servant, Hannah Burton, an my Book of Meditations, as I used to call it ; honest, faithful creature, who loved me, reve- being extracts from the best of books; which renced my mother, and respected my sister, and she seemed to approve of, although suited parnever sought to do anything unbecoming of her ticularly to my own case. As for the book itcharacter, I bequeath the sum of fifty pounds, self, perhaps my good Mrs Norton will be glad to be paid within one month after my decease, to have it, as it has been written all with my she labouring under ill health : and if that ill own hand. health continue, I commend her for farther as- In the middle drawer of my escritoire, at sistance to my good Mrs Norton, to be put up- Harlowe-Place, are many letters, and copies of on my poor's funds, hereafter to be mentioned. letters, put up according to their dates, which I

To the coachman, groom, and two footmen, have written or received in a course of years and five maids, at Harlowe-Place, I bequeath ten (ever since I learned to write) from and to my pounds each ; to the helper five pounds. grandfather, my father and mother, my uncles,

To my sister's maid, Betty Barnes, I bequeath my brother and sister, on occasional little abten pounds, to shew that I resent not former sences ; my late uncle Morden, my cousin Morclisobligations; which I believe were owing den ; Mrs Norton, and Miss Howe, and other more to the insolence of office, and natural pert- of my companions and friends, before my conness, than to personal ill will.

finement at my father's : as also from the three All my wearing-apparel, of whatever sort, reverend gentlemen, Dr Blome, Mr Arnold, and that I have not been obliged to part with, or Mr Tomkins, now with God, and the very rewhich is not already bequeathed, (my linen ex- verend Dr Lewen, on serious subjects. As these cepted,) I desire Mrs Norton will accept of. letters exhibit a correspondence that no person

The trunks and boxes in which my clothes of my sex need to be ashamed of, allowing for are sealed up, I desire may not be opened, but the time of life when mine were written ; and in presence of Mrs Norton (or some one depu- as many excellent things are contained in those ted by her) and of Mrs Lovick.

written to me; and as Miss Howe, to whom To the worthy Mrs Lovick, above-mentioned, most of them have been communicated, wished from whom I have received grcat civilities, and formerly to have them, if she survived me: for even maternal kindnesses; and to Mrs Smitli these reasons, I bequeath thein to my said dear

friend, Miss Anna Howe; and the rather, as one hundred guineas, as a grateful, though in. she had for some years past, a very considerable sufficient acknowledgment of the trouble he share in the correspondence.

will be at in the execution of the trust he has I do hereby make, constitute, and ordain John so kindly undertaken. “I desire him likewise to Belford, of Edgware, in the county of Middle- accept of twenty guineas for a ring: and that sex, Esq. the sole executor of this my last will he will reimburse himself for all the charges and and testament; having previously obtained his expenses which he shall be at in the execution leave so to do. I have given the reasons which of this trust. induced me to ask this gentleman to take upon In the worthy Dr H. I have found a physihim this trouble, to Miss Howe. I therefore cian, a father, and a friend. I beg of him, as a refer to her on this subject.

testimony of my gratitude, to accept of twenty But I do most earnestly beg of him, the said guineas for a ring. Mr Belford, that, in execution of his trust, he I have the same obligations to the kind and will (as he has repeatedly promised) studious- skilful Mr Goddard, who attended me as my ly endeavour to promote peace with, and sup- apothecary. His very moderate bill I have disa press resentments in, every one ; so as that all charged down to yesterday. I have always farther mischiefs may be prevented, as well from, thought it incumbent upon testators to shorten as to, his friend. And, in order to this, I be all they can the trouble of their executors. I seech him to cultivate the friendship of my wor- know I under-rate the value of Mr Goddard's thy cousin Morden ; who, as I presume to hope, attendances, when, over and above what may (when he understands it to be my dying re- accrue from yesterday, to the hour that will finquest,) will give him his advice and assistance ish all, I desire fifteen guineas for a ring may in every article where it may be necessary: and be presented to him. who will perhaps be so good as to interpose with To the Reverend Mr who frequently my relations, if any difficulty should arise about attended me, and prayed by me, in my last stages, carrying any of the articles of this my last will I also bequeath fifteen guineas for a ring. into execution, and to soften them into the wish- There are a set of honest, indigent people, ed-for condescension :-for it is my earnest re- whom I used to call My Poor, and to whoin quest to Mr Belford, that he will not seek by Mrs Norton conveys relief each month, (or at law, or by any sort of violence, either by word shorter periods,) in proportion to their necessior deed, to extort the performance from them. ties, from a sum i deposited in her hands, and If there be any articles of a merely domestic na- from time to time recruited, as means accrued to ture, that my relations shall think unfit to be me; but now, nearly, if not wholly, expended: carried into execution ; such articles I leave en- now, that my fault may be as little aggravated tirely to my said cousin Morden and Mr Belford as possible, by the sufferings of the worthy pcoto vary, or totally dispense with, as they shall ple whom Heaven gave me a heart to relieve; agree upon the matter ; or, if they two differ in and as the produce of my grandfather's estate, opinion, they will be pleased to be determined (including the moiety of the sums he had by by a third person, to be chosen by them both. him, and was pleased to give me, at his death,

Having been pressed by Miss Howe and her as above-mentioned,) together with what I shall mother to collect the particulars of my sad sto- farther appropriate to the same use in the subry, and given expectation that I would, in order sequent articles, will, as I hope, more than answer to do my character justice with all my friends all my legacies and bequests; it is my will and and companions; but not having time before desire, that the remainder, be it little or much, me for the painful task; it has been a pleasure shall become a fund to be appropriated, and I to me to find, by extracts kindly communicated hereby direct that it be appropriated, to the like to me by my said executor, that I may safely purposes with the sums I put into Mrs Norton's trust my fame to the justice done me by Mr hands, as aforesaid,--and this under the direcLovelace, in his letters to him, my said executor. tion and management of the said Mrs Norton, And as Mr Belford has engaged to contribute who knows my whole mind in this particular. what is in his power towards a compilement to And in case of her death, or of her desire to be be made of all that relates to my story, and acquitted of the management thereof, it is my knows my whole mind in this respect ; it is my earnest request to my dear Miss Howe, that she desire, that he will cause two copies to be made will take it upon herself, and that at her own of this collection; one to remain with Miss death she will transfer what shall remain undisHowe, the other with himself; and that he will posed of at the time, to such persons, and with shew or lend his copy if required, to my aunt such limitations, restrictions, and provisoes, as she Hervey, for the satisfaction of any of my fami- shall think will best answer my intention. For, ly; but under such restrictions as the said Mr as to the management and distribution of all or Belford shall think fit to impose ; that neither any part of it, while in Mrs Norton's hands, or any other person's safety may be endangered, nor her own, I will that it be entirely discretional, his own honour suffer, by the communication. and without account, either to my executor or

I bequeath to my said executor, the sum of any other person.

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