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(shall I call it?) which distinguishes a bene- Compassion proper to mankind appears : ficent mind.

Which Nature witness'd, when she lent us tears. Money he values not, but as a mean to sup

Of tender sentiments we only give port his pride and his independence. And it is

These proofs : To weep is our prerogative ; easy, as I have often thought, for a person to

To shew by pitying looks, and melting eyes,

How with u suff'ring friend we sympathize. part with a secondary appetite, when, by so do

Who can all sense of other's ills escape, ing, he can promote or gratify a first.

Is but a brute at best, in human shape. I am afraid, my dear, that there must have been some fault in his education. His natural It cannot but yield me some pleasure, hardly bias was not, I fancy, sufficiently attended to. as I have sometimes thought of the people of He was instructed, perhaps (as his power was the house, that such a good man as Captain likely to be large) to do good and beneficent ac- Tomlinson had spoken well of them, upon intions; but not, I doubt, from proper motives. quiry.

If he had, his generosity would not have stopt And here I stop a minute, my dear, to reat pride, but would have struck into humanity; ceive, in fancy, your kind congratulation. and then would he not have contented himself My next, I hope, will confirm my present, with doing praise-worthy things by fits and and open still more agreeable prospects. Meanstarts, or, as if relying on the doctrine of merits, time, be assured, that there cannot possibly any he hoped by a good action to atone for a bad good fortune befal me, which I shall look upon one; * but he would have been uniformly noble, with equal delight to that I have in your friendand done the good for its own sake.

ship. O my dear! what a lot have I drawn! pride, My thankful compliments to your good Mr this poor man's virtue; and revenge, his other Hickman, to whose kind intervention I am so predominating quality !--This one consolation, much obliged on this occasion. Conclude me, however, remains : He is not an infidel, and my dearest Miss Howe, unbeliever; had he been an infidel, there would Your very affectionate and grateful have been no room at all for hope of him ; but,

CL. HARLOWE. priding himself, as he does, in his fertile invention, he would have been utterly abandoned, irreclaimable, and a savage.

LETTER CXXV. [When she comes to relate those occasions, which MR LOVELACE TO JOHN BELFORD, ESQ.

Mr Lovelace in his narrative acknowledges himself to be affected by, she thus expresses

Tuesday, May 30. herself:]

I have a letter from Lord M. Such a one

as I would wish for, if I intended matrimony. He endeavoured, as once before, to conceal But, as matters are circumstanced, I cannot his emotion. But why, my dear, should these think of shewing it to my beloved. men (for Mr Lovelace is not singular in this) My lord regrets that he is not to be the think themselves above giving these beautiful lady's nuptial father. He seems apprehensive proofs of a feeling heart ? Were it in my power that I have still, specious as my reasons are, again to choose, or to refuse, I would reject the some mischief in my head. man with contempt, who sought to suppress, or

He graciously consents, that I may marry offered to deny, the power of being visibly af- when I please, and offers one or both of my fected upon proper occasions, as either a savage- cousins to assist my bride, and to support her hearted creature, or as one who was so ignorant spirits on the occasion, since, as he understands, of the principal glory of the human nature, as she is so much afraid to venture with me. to place his pride in a barbarous insensibility. Pritchard, he tells me, has his final orders

These lines translated from Juvenal by Mr to draw up deeds for assigning over to me, in Tate, I have been often pleased with:

perpetuity, 1000l. per annum, which he will

That the lady judges rightly of him in this place, see Vol. VI. Letter XXXIV. where, giving the motive for his generosity to his Rosebud, he says" As I make it my rule, whenever I have committed a very capital enormity, to do some good by way of atonement; and as I believe I am a pretty deal indebted on that score; I intend to join an hundred pounds to Johnny's aunt's hundred pounds, to make one innocent couple happy."-Besides which motive, lic had a further view to answer in that instance of his generosity; as may be seen in Vol. VI. Letters LXVII., LXVIU., LXIX. Sec also the note to Letter LXVIII. Vol. VI.

To shew the consistence of his actions, as they now appear, with his views and principles, as he lays them down in his first letters, it may not be amiss to refer the reader to his letters, Vol. VI. Nos. XXXIV.XXXV.

See also Vol. VI. Letters XXX., XL. for Clarissa's early opinion of Mr Lovciace.--Whence the coldress and indifference to him, which he so repeatedly accuses her of, will be accounted for, more to her glory, than to his honour.

execute the same hour that the lady in person recovered or not, were signified, and both as owns her marriage.

readily assented to. He consents, that the jointure be made from Her wishes, from my attentive behaviour, my own estate.

when with her at St Paul's, * that I would of He wishes, that the lady would have ac- ten accompany her to the Divine Service, were cepted of his draught, and commends me for gently intimated, and as readily engaged for. I tendering it to her, but reproaches me for my assured her, that I ever had respected the clergy pride in not keeping it myself. What the right in a body; and some individuals of them (her side gives up, the left, he says, may be the better Dr Lewen for one) highly: and that, were not for.

going to church an act of religion, I thought it The girls, the left-sided girls, he means. Las I told thee oncet) a most agreeable sight to

With all my heart. If I can have my Clarissa, see rich and poor, all of a company, as I might the devil take everything else.

say, assembled once a-week in one place, and A good deal of other stuff writes the stupid each in his or her best attire, to worship the God peer; scribbling in several places half a dozen that made them. Nor could it be a hardship lines, apparently for no other reason but to bring upon a man liberally educated, to make one on in as many musty words in an old saw. so solemn an occasion, and to hear the harangue

thou askest, How I can manage, since of the man of letters, (though far from being the my beloved will wonder that I have not an an- principal part of the service, as it is too geneswer from my lord to such a letter as I wrote to rally looked upon to be,) whose studies having him; and, if I own I have one, will expect that taken a different turn from his own, he must I should shew it to her, as I did my letter ? - always have something new to say. This I answer-That I can be informed by She shook her head, and repeated the word Pritchard, that my lord has the gout in his right new; but looked as if willing to be satisfied for hand; and has ordered him to attend me in the present with this answer. To be sure, Jack, form, for my particular orders about the trans- she means to do great despite to his Satanic fer : And I can see Pritchard, thou knowest, majesty in her hopes of reforming me. No wonat the King's Arms, or wherever I please, at an der, therefore, if heexerts himself to prevent her, hour's warning ; though he be at M. Hall, I in and to be revenged. But how came this in ! town ; and he, by word of mouth, can acquaint I am ever of party against myself.-One day, I me with everything in my lord's letter that is fancy, I shall hate myself on recollecting what necessary for my charmer to know.

I am about at this instant. But I must stay till Whenever it suits me, I can restore the old then. We must all of us do something to repent peer to his right hand, and then can make him of. write a much more sensible letter than this that The reconciliation-prospect was enlarged uphe has now sent me.

on. If her uncle Harlowe will but pave the way Thou knowest, that an adroitness in the art to it, and if it can be brought about, she shall of manual imitation, was one of my earliest at- be happy.-Happy, with a sigh, as it is now postainments. It has been said, on this occasion, that, sible she can be ! had I been a bad man in meum and tuum mat- She won't forbear, Jack ! ters, I should not have been fit to live. As to the I told her, that I had heard from Pritchard girls, we hold it no sin to cheat them. And are just before we set out on our airing, and expectwe not told, that in being well deceived consists ed him in town to-morrow from Lord M. to take the whole of human happiness.

my directions. I spoke with gratitude of my

lord's kindness to me; and with pleasure of Wednesday, May 31. Lady Sarah's, Lady Betty's, and my two cousins All still happier and happier. A very high Montague's veneration for her: as also of his honour done ine: a chariot, instead of a coach, lordship’s concern that his gout hindered him permitted, purposely to indulge me in the sub- from writing a reply with his own hand to my ject of subjects.

last. Our discourse in this sweet airing turned upon She pitied my lord. She pitied poor Mrs our future manner of life. The day is bashfully Fretchville too ; for she had the goodness to in. promised me. Soon, was the answer to my re- quire after her. The dear creature pitied everypeated urgency. Our equipage, our servants, body that seemed to want pity. Happy in her our liveries, were parts of the delightful subject. own prospects, she had leisure to look abroad, A desire that the wretch who had given me in- and wishes everybody equally happy, telligence out of the family (honest Joseph Le- It is likely to go very hard with Mrs Fretchman) might not be one of our menials ; and her ville. Her face, which she had valued herself resolution to have her faithful Hannah, whether upon, will be utterly ruined. This good, however, as I could not but observe, she may reap These settlements of my mother made the from so great an evil-As the greater malady lawyer's work easy ; nor can she have a better generally swallows up the less, she may have a precedent; the great Lord S. having settled grief on this occasion, that may diminish the them, at the request of my mother's relations ; other grief, and make it tolerable.”

See Letter LXVI. of this Vol.

Ibid.

all the difference, my charmer's are £100 per I had a gentle reprimand for this light turn annum more than my mother's. on so heavy an evil “ For what was the loss of I offered to read to her the old deed, while beauty to the loss of a good husband ?"-Ex- she looked over the draught; for she had refucellent creature !

sed her presence at the examination with the Her hopes (and her pleasureupon those hopes) clerk ; but this she also declined. that Miss Howe's mother would be reconciled I suppose she did not care to hear of so many to her, were also mentioned. Good Mrs Howe children, first, second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, was her word, for a woman so covetous, and so and seventh sons, and as many daughters, to be remorseless in her covetousness, that no one else begotten upon the body of the said Clarissa Har. will call her good. But this dear creature has lowe. such an extension in her love, as to be capable Charming matrimonial recitativoes !-though of valuing the most insignificant animal related it is always said lawfully begotten toomas if a to those whom she respects. Love me, and love man could beget children unlawfully upon the my dog, I have heard Lord M. say.- Who knows, body of his own wife. But thinkest thou not but that I may in time, in compliment to my- that these arch rogues the lawyers hereby intiself, bring her to think well of thee, Jack? mate, that a man may have children by his wife

But what am I about? Am I not all this time before marriage?--This must be what they mean. arraigning my own heart?-I know I am, by Why will these sly fellows put an honest man the remorse I feel in it, while my pen bears in mind of such rogueries ? -But hence, as in testimony to her excellence. But yet I must numberless other instances, we see, that law and add (for no selfish consideration shall hinder me gospel are two very different things. from doing justice to this admirable creature) Dorcas, in our absence, tried to get at the that in this conversation she demonstrated so wainscot-box in the dark closet. But it cannot much prudent knowledge in everything that re- be done without violence. And to run a risk of lates to that part of the domestic management consequence now, for mere curiosity-sake, would which falls under the care of a mistress of a fa- be inexcusable. mily, that I believe she has no equal of her years Mrs Sinclair and the nymphs are all of opi. in the world,

nion, that I am now so much a favourite, and But, indeed, I know not the subject on which have such a visible share in her confidence, and she does not talk with admirable distinction; even in her affections, that I may do what I will, insomuch that could I but get over my preju- and plead for excuse violence of passion ; which, dices against matrimony, and resolve to walk in they

will have it, makes violence of action parthe dull beaten path of my ancestors, I should donable with their sex; as well as an allowed be the happiest of men—and if I cannot, perhaps extenuation with the unconcerned of both sexes ; I may be ten times more to be pitied than she. and they all offer their helping hands. Why

My heart, my heart, Belford, is not to be not? they say: Has she not passed for my wife trusted— I break off, to re-peruse some of Miss before them all ?-And is she not in a fine way Howe's virulence.

of being reconciled to her friends ?-And was not the want of that reconciliation the pretence for postponing the consummation ?

They again urge me, since it is so difficult to Cursed letters, these of Miss Howe, Jack !- make night my friend, to an attempt in the day. Do thou turn back to those of mine, where I They remind me, that the situation of their take notice of them-I proceed.

house is such, that no noises can be heard out Upon the whole, my charmer was all gentle- of it; and ridicule me for making it necessary ness, all ease, all serenity, throughout this sweet for a lady to be undressed. It was not always excursion. Nor had she reason to be otherwise ; 80 with me, poor old man ! Sally told me, saufor it being the first time that I had the honour of cily flinging her handkerchief in my face. her company alone, I was resolved to encourage her, by my respectfulness, to repeat the favour. On our return, I found the counsellor's clerk

LETTER CXXVI. waiting for me, with a draught of the marriagesettlements.

MR LOVELACE TO JOHN BELFORD, ESQ. They are drawn, with only the necessary variations, from those made for my mother. The

Friday, June 2. original of which (now returned by the coun- NorwITHSTANDING my studied-for politesellor) as well as the new draughts, I have put ness and complaisance for some days past; and into my beloved's hands.

though I have wanted courage to throw the mask VOL. VII.

Q

quite aside ; yet I have made the dear creature been covered with blushes for those who could more than once look about her, by the warm, not blush. though decent, expression of my passion. I have I once, upon such an occasion, proposed to a brought her to own, that I am more than indif- circle of a dozen, thus scandalized, to withdraw; ferent with her ; but as to love, which I pressed since they must needs see, that as well the lady, her to acknowledge, what need of acknowledge- as the gentleman, wanted to be in private. This ments of that sort, when a woman consents to motion had its effect upon the amorous pair ; marrying ?-And once repulsing me with dis- and I was applauded for the check given to their pleasure, the proof of true love I was vowing for licentiousness. her, was RESPECT, not FREEDOM. And offering But, upon another occasion of this sort, I to defend myself, she told me, that all the con- acted a little more in character. For I ventured ception she had been able to form of a faulty to make an attempt upon a bride, which I should passion, was, that it must demonstrate itself as not have had the courage to make, had not the mine sought to do.

unblushing passiveness with which she received I endeavoured to justify my passion, by lay- her fond husband's public toyings (looking round ing over-delicacy at her door. Over-delicacy, her with triumph rather than with shame, upon she said, was not my fault, if it were hers. She every lady present) incited my curiosity to know must plainly tell me, that I appeared to her in- if the same complacency might not be shewn to capable of distinguishing what were the requi- a private friend. 'Tis true, I was in honour obsites of a pure mind. Perhaps, had the libertine liged to keep the secret. But I never saw the presumption to imagine, that there was no dif- turtle’s bill afterwards, but I thought of number ference in heart, nor any but what proceeded two to the same female ; and in my heart thankfrom difference of education and custom, between ed the fond husband for the lesson he had taught the pure and impure—and yet custom alone, as his wife. she observed, if I did so think, would make a From what I have said, thou wilt see, that I second nature, as well in good as in bad habits. approve of my beloved's exception to public loves.

That, I hope, is all the charming icicle means by marriage-purity. But to return.

From the whole of what I have mentioned to I have just now been called to account for have passed between my beloved and me, thou some innocent liberties which I thought myself wilt gather, that I have not been a mere dangentitled to take before the wonen ; as they sup- ler, a Hickman, in the past days, though not ab-, pose us to be married, and now within view of solutely active, and a Lovelace. consummation.

The dear creature now considers herself as I took the lecture very hardly; and with im- my wife-elect. The unsaddened heart, no longer patience wished for the happy day and hour prudish, will not now, I hope, give the sable when I might call her all my own, and meet turn to every address of the man she dislikes not. with no check from a niceness that had no ex- And yet she must keep up so much reserve, as ample.

will justify past inflexibilities. Many and She looked at me with a bashful kind of con- many a pretty soul would yield, were she not tempt. I thought it contempt, and required the afraid that the man she favoured would think reason for it; not being conscious of offence, as the worse of her for it.” This is also a part of I told her.

the rake's creed. But should she resent ever so This is not the first time, Mr Lovelace, said strongly, she cannot now break with me ; since, she, that I have had cause to be displeased with if she does, there will be an end of the family reyou, when you, perhaps, have not thought your- conciliation ; and that in a way highly discreditself upexceptionable.—But, sir, let me tell you, able to herself. that the married state, in my eye, is a state of purity, and [I think she told me] not of licena

Saturday, June 3. tiousness ; so, at least, I understood her.

Just returned from Doctors-Commons. I Marriage-purity, Jack !-Very comical, 'faith have been endeavouring to get a licence. Very -Yet, sweet dears, half the female world ready true, Jack. I have the mortification to find a to run away with a rake, because he is a rake; difficulty, as the lady is of rank and fortune, and and for no other reason; nay, every other rea- as there is no consent of father or next friend, in son against their choice of such a one.

obtaining this all-fettering instrument. But have not you and I, Belford, seen young I made report of this difficulty. “It is very wives, who would be thought modest; and, right,” she says, “ that such difficulties should when maids, were fantastically shy; permit free- be made." —But not to a man of my known for-, doms in public from their uxorious husbands, tune, surely, Jack, though the woman were the which have shewn, that both of them have for- daughter of a duke. gotten what belongs either to prudence or de- I asked, if she approved of the settlements ? cency? while every modest eye has sunk under She said, she had compared them with my mothe shameless effrontery, and every modest face ther's, and had no objection to them. She had. written to Miss Howe upon the subject, she seest thou not? may subject us both to weak owned ; and to inform her of our present situa- nesses. And should she not have charity for me, tion.*

as I have for her?

Twice, indeed, with rapture, which once she called rude, did I salute her; and each time re

senting the freedom, did she retire; ough, to Just now, in high good humour, my beloved do her justice, she favoured me again with her returned me the draughts of the settlements; a presence at my first entreaty, and took no notice copy of which I have sent to Captain Tomlinson. of the cause of her withdrawing. She complimented me, that she had never any Is it policy to shew so open a resentment for doubt of my honour in cases of this nature. innocent liberties, which, in her situation, she

In matters between man and man nobody ever must so soon forgive ? had, thou knowest.

Yet the woman who resents not initiatory frele I had need, thou wilt say, to have some good doms must be lost. For love is an encroacher. qualities.

Love never goes backward. Love is always Great faults and great virtues are often found aspiring. Always must aspire. Nothing but the in the same person. In nothing very bad, but highest act of love can satisfy an indulged love. as to women: and did not one of them begin And what advantages has a lover, who values with me?t

not breaking the peace, over his mistress who We have held, that women have no souls. I is solicitous to keep it ! ain a very Turk in this point, and willing to be- I have now at this instant wrought myself lieve they have not. And if so, to whom shall up, for the dozenth time, to a half-resolution. I be accountable for what I do to them? Nay, A thousand agreeable things I have to say to her. if souls they have, as there is no sex in etherials, She is in the dining-room. Just gone up. She nor need of any, what plea can a lady hold of always expects me when there. injuries done her in her lady-state, when there is an end of her lady-ship?

High displeasure !-followed by an abrupt LETTER CXXVII.

departure.

I sat down by her. I took both her hands in MR LOVELACE TO JOHN BELFORD, E$Q.

mine. I would have it so. All gentle my voice.

Her father mentioned with respect. Her mother

Monday, June 5. with reverence. Even her brother amicably I am now almost in despair of succeeding with spoken of

. I never thought I could have wishthis charming frost-piece by love or gentleness. ed so ardently, as I told her I did wish, for a -A copy of the draughts, as I told thee, has reconciliation with her family. been sent to Captain Tomlinson ; and that by a A sweet and grateful fush then overspread special messenger. Engrossments are proceed- her fair face; a gentle sigh now and then heaved ing with. I have been again at the Commons. her handkerchief. -Should in all probability have procured a li- I perfectly longed to hear from Captain Tom: cence by Mallory's means, had not Mallory's linson. It was impossible for the uncle to find friend, the proctor, been suddenly sent for to fault with the draught of the settlements. I Cheshunt, to make an old lady's will. Pritchard would not, however, be understood, by sending has told me by word of mouth, though my charmer them down, that I intended to put it in her saw him not, all that was necessary for her to uncle's power to delay my happy day. When, know in the letter my Lord wrote, which I could when was it to be? not shew her; and taken my directions about the I would hasten again to the Commons, and estates to be made over to me on my nuptials.- would not return without the licence. Yet, with all these favourable appearances, no

The Lawn I proposed to retire to, as soon as conceding moment to be found, no improvable the happy ceremony was over. This day and tenderness to be raised.

that day I proposed. But never, I believe, was there so true, so de- It was time enough to name the day, when licate a modesty in the human mind, as in that the settlements were completed, and the licence of this lady. And this has been my security all obtained. Happy should she be, could the kind along; and, in spite of Miss Howe's advice to Captain Tomlinson obtain her uncle's presence her, will be so still ; since, if her delicacy be a privately, fault, she can no more overcome it than I can A good hint !-It may, perhaps, be improved my aversion to matrimony. Habit, habit, Jack, upon—either for a delay or a pacifier.

• As this letter of the Lady to Miss Howe contains no new matter, but what may be collected from those of Mr Lovelace, it is omitted.

+ See Vol. VI. Letter XXXI,

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