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sent by a particular hand ; she opening it with great emotion—seeming to haveexpected it sooner—were the reasons for my apprehensions. Dorcas tells me, that her lady has been re

We were then at Muswell-hill; a pretty coun- moving her papers from the mahogany chest into try within the eye, to Polly, was the remark, in- a wainscot box, which held her linen, and which stead of replying to me.

she put into her dark closet. We have no key But I was not so to be answered – I should of that at present. No doubt but all her letters, expect some charming subjects and characters previous to those I have come at, are in that box. from two such pens; I hoped everything went Dorcas is uneasy upon it; yet hopes that her on well between Mr Hickman and Miss Howe. lady does not suspect her; for she is sure that Her mother's heart, I said, was set upon that she laid in everything as she found it. match ; Mr Hickman was not without his merits; he was what the ladies called a SOBER man ; but I must needs say, that I thought Miss

LETTER CXVIII. Howe deserved a husband of a very different

MR LOVELACE TO JOHN BELFORD, ESQ. This, I supposed, would have engaged her into a subject from which I could have wire-drawn

Cocoa-tree, Saturday, May 27. something :- for Hickman is one of her favour- This ipecacuanha is a most disagreeable meites-why, I can't divine, except for the sake of dicine. That these cursed physical folks can opposition of character to that of thy honest find out nothing to do us good, but what would friend.

poison the devil! In the other world, were they But she cut me short by a look of disappro- only to take physic, it would be punishment bation, and another cool remark upon a distant enough of itself for a mis-spent life. A doctor view ; and, How far off, Miss Horton, do you at one elbow, and an apothecary at the other, think that clump of trees may be ? pointing out and the poor soul labouring under their prescriof the coach-So I had done.

bed operations, he need no worse tormentors. Here endeth all I have to write concerning But now this was to take down my counteour conversation on this our agreeable airing. nance. It has done it ; for, with violent retch

We have both been writing ever since we came ings, having taken enough to make me sick, and home. I am to be favoured with her company not enough water to carry it off, I presently for an hour, before she retires to rest.

looked as if I had kept my bed a fortnight. It All that obsequious love can suggest, in order jesting, as I thought in the midst of the exerto engage her tenderest sentiments for me against cise, with edge tools, and worse with physical ones. to-morrow's sickness, will I aim at when we Two hours it held me. I had forbid Dorcas meet. But at parting will complain of a disor- to let her lady know anything of the matter; der in my stomach.

out of tenderness to her; being willing, when she knew my prohibition, to let her see that I expected her to be concerned for me.

Well, but Dorcas was nevertheless a woman, We have met. All was love and unexcep- and she can whisper to her lady the secret she tionable respect on my part. Ease and complai- is enjoined to keep ! sance on hers. She was concerned for my dis- Come hither, toad, [sick as a devil at the order. So sudden —Just as we parted ! But it instant ;] let me see what a mixture of grief was nothing. I should be quite well by the and surprise may be beat up together in thy morning.

pudding-face. Faith, Jack, I think I am sick already. Is it That won't do. That dropt jaw, and mouth possible for such a giddy fellow as me to per- distended into the long oval, is more upon the sunde myself to be ill! I am a better mimic at horrible than the grievous. this rate than I wish to be. But every nerve Nor that pinking and winking with thy odious and fibre of me is always ready to contribute its eyes, as my charmer once called them. aid, whether by health or by ailment, to carry

A little better that ; yet not quite right : but a resolved-on roguery into execution.

keep your mouth closer. You have a muscle or Dorcas has transcribed for me the whole let- two which you have no command of, between ter of Miss Howe, dated Sunday, May 14, * of your cheek-bone and your lips, that should carwhich before I had only extracts. She found no ry one corner of your mouth up towards your other letter added to that parcel ; but this, and crow's-foot, and that down to meet it. that which I copied myself in character last Sun- There ! Begone! Be in a plaguy hurry run. day whilst she was at church, relating to the ning up stairs and down, to fetch from the dismuggling scheme,t are enough for me. ning-room what you carry up on purpose to

• See Letter XC. of this vol.

+ See Letter CII. of this vol.

fetch, till motion extraordinary put you out of Miss Howe, I defy thee, my dear-Mrs Townsbreath, and give you the sigh natural.

end !-Who the devil are you ?- Troop away What's the matter, Dorcas ?

with your contrabands. No smuggling! nor Nothing, madam.

smuggler, but myself! Nor will the choicest My beloved wonders she has not seen me of my fair-one's favours be long prohibited goods this morning, no doubt; but is too shy to say to me! she wonders. Repeated “ what's the matters, however, as Dorcas runs up and down stairs by her door, bring on, 0 madam ! my master! my poor master!

Every one is now sure that she loves me. What! How! When !-and all the monosyl- Tears were in her eyes more than once for me. lables of surprise.

She suffered me to take her hand, and kiss it as [Within parentheses let me tell thee, that I often as I pleased. On Mrs Sinclair's mentionhave often thought, that the little words in the ing, that I too much confined myself, she pressrepublic of letters, like the little folks in a na- ed me to take an airing ; but obligingly

desired tion, are the most significant. The trisyllables, me to be careful of myself. Wished I would and the rumblers of syllables more than three, advise with a physician. God made physicians, are but the good-for-little magnates.]

she said. I must not tell you, madam-My master or- I did not think that, Jack. God, indeed, made dered me not to tell you—but he is in a worse us all. But I fancy she meant physic instead of way than he thinks for !-But he would not physicians ; and then the phrase might mean have you frighted.

what the vulgar phrase means;—God sends meat, High concern took possession of every sweet the Devil cooks. feature. She pitied me!-by my soul, she pitied I was well already, on taking the styptic from me !

her dear hands. Where is he?

On her requiring me to take the air, I asked, Too much in a hurry for good manners, [an. If I might have the honour of her company in other parenthesis, Jack ! Good manners are so a coach; and this, that I might observe if she little natural, that we ought to be composed to had an intention of going out in my absence. observe them ; politeness will not live in a If she thought a chair were not a more prostorm.] I cannot stay to answer questions, cries per vehicle for my case, she would with all her the wench--though desirous to answer [a third heart ! parenthesis Like the people crying proclama- There's a precious ! tions, running away from the customers they I kissed her hand again ! She was all goodwant to sell to. I This hurry puts the lady in ness !-Would to Heaven I better deserved it, I a hurry to ask, Ia fourth, by way of embellish- said !-But all were golden days before us ! ing the third !-as the other does the people in Her presence and generous concern had done a hurry to buy. And I have in my eye now a everything. I was well! Nothing ailed me. whole street raised, and running after a procla- But, since my beloved will have it so, I'll take a mation or express-crier, as if the first was a thief, little airing !- Let a chair be called !-0 my the other his pursuers. ]

charmer ! were I to have owed this indisposition At last, O Lord ! let Mrs Lovelace know ! to my late harasses, and to the uneasiness I have There is danger, to be sure ! whispered from one had for disobliging you ; all is infinitely compennymph to another ; but at the door, and so loud, sated by your goodness. All the art of healthat my listening fair-one might hear. ing is in your smiles !-Your late displeasure

Out she darts-As how ! as how, Dorcas ! was the only malady!

O madam-A vomiting of blood ! A vessel While Mrs Sinclair, and Dorcas, and Polly, broke, to be sure!

and even poor silly Mabell [for Sally went out, Down she hastens ; finds every one as busy as my angel came in ) with uplifted hands and over my blood in the entry, as if it were that of eyes, stood thanking

Heaven that I was better, the Neapolitan saint.

in audible whispers: See the power of love! cried In steps my charmer, with a face of sweet one. What a charming husband, another.. concern.

Happy couple, all ! How do you, Mr Lovelace ?

O how the dear creature's cheek mantled ! O my best love !-Very well !-Very well ! How her eyes sparkled !-How sweetly acceptNothing at all! nothing of consequence !-I able is praise to conscious merit, while it but shall be well in an instant! Straining again ! for reproaches when applied to the undeserving ! I was indeed plaguy sick, though no more blood What a new, what a gay creation it makes at came.

once in a diffident or dispirited heart ! In short, Belford, I have gained my end. I And now, Belford, was it not worth while to see the dear soul loves me. I see she forgives be sick? And yet, I must tell thee, that too many me all that's past. I see I have credit for a new pleasanter expedients offer themselves, to make

trial any more of this confounded ipecacuanha. VOL. VII.

score.

P

MISS CLARISSA HARLOWE TO MISS HOWE.

happy character, and embarrassing ways, on the

other, I had no more leisure than inclination to LETTER CXIX.

examine my own heart in this particular. And this reminds me of a passage in one of your former letters, which I will transcribe, though it

was written in raillery. May it not be," say Saturday, May 27. you,+ " that you have had such

persons

to deal MR LOVELACE, my dear, has been very ill. with, as have not allowed you to attend to the Suddenly taken, with a vomiting of blood in throbs; or, if you had them a little now-andgreat quantities. Some vessel broken. He com- then, whether, having had two accounts to place plained of a disorder in his stomach over night. them to, you have not by mistake put them to I was the more affected with it, as I am afraid the wrong one?” A passage, which, although it was occasioned by the violent contentions be- it came into my mind when Mr Lovelace was tween us. But was I in fault?

least exceptionable, yet that I have denied any How lately did I think I hated him !-But efficacy to, when he has teazed and vexed me, hatred and anger, I see, are but temporary pas- and given me cause of suspicion. For, after all, sions with me. One cannot, my dear, ħate people my dear, Mr Lovelace is not wise in all his ways. in danger of death, or who are in distress or af- And should we not endeavour, as much as is fliction. My heart, I find, is not proof against possible, (where we are not attached by natural kindness, and acknowledgment of errors com- ties,) to like and dislike as reason bids us, and mitted.

according to the merit or demerit of the obHe took great care to have his illness conceal- ject? If love, as it is called, is allowed to be an ed from me as long as he could. So tender in excuse for our most unreasonable follies, and to the violence of his disorder !-So desirous to lay level all the fences that a careful education make the best of it!—I wish he had not been ill has surrounded us by, what is meant by the in my sight. I was too much affected—every- doctrine of subduing our passions ?-But, my body alarming me with his danger. The poor dearest friend, am I not guilty of a punishable man, from such high health, so suddenly taken ! fault, were I to love this man of errors? And --and so unprepared !

has not my own heart deceived me, when I He is gone out in a chair. I advised him to thought I did not ? And what must be that love, do so. I fear that my advice was wrong ; since that has not some degree of purity for its obquiet in such a disorder must needs be best. We ject? I am afraid of recollecting some passages are apt to be so ready, in cases of emergency, to in my cousin Morden's letter. I–And yet why give our advice, without judgment, or waiting fly I from subjects that, duly considered, might for it !- I proposed a physician, indeed ; but he tend to correct and purify my heart? I have carwould not hear of one. Í have great honour for ried, I doubt, my notions on this head too high, the faculty; and the greater, as I have always not for practice, but for my practice. Yet think observed that those who treat the professors of me not guilty of prudery neither ; for, had I the art of healing contemptuously, too general- found out as much of myself before ; or, rather, ly treat higher institutions in the same man- had he given me heart's-ease enough before to

find it out, you should have had my confession I am really very uneasy. For I have, I doubt, exposed myself to him, and to the women be- Nevertheless, let me tell you, (what I hope I low. They indeed will excuse me, as they think may justly tell you,) that, if again he give me us married. But, if he be not generous, I shall cause to resume distance and reserve, I hope my have cause to regret this surprise; which (as I reason will gather strength enough from his imhad reason to think myself unaccountably treat- perfections to enable me to keep my passions ed by him) has taught me more than I knew of under.—What can we do more than govern ourmyself.

selves by the temporary lights lent us? 'Tis true, I have owned more than once, that You will not wonder that I am grave on this I could have liked Mr Lovelace above all men. detection-Detection must I call it? What can I remember the debates you and I used to have I call it ?on this subject, when I was your happy guest. Dissatisfied with myself, I ain afraid to look You used to say, and once you wrote, * that men back upon what I have written; and yet know of his cast are the men that our sex do not na- not how to have done writing. I never was in turally dislike: While I held, that such were such an odd frame of mind.

I know not how not (however that might be) the men we ought to describe it.—Was you ever 80 ?--Afraid of to like. But what with my relations' precipita- the censure of her you love-yet not conscious ting of me, on one hand, and what with his un- that you deserved it ?

ner.

sooner.

See Letter XCV. of this Volume.
See Letter LXXX of this Volume.

+ See Volume VI. Letter XII.

Of this, however, I am convinced, that I should tulate me upon my sudden recovery; which she indeed deserve censure, if I kept any secret of did in the most obliging manner. my heart from you.

But we had not sat long together, when DorBut I will not add another word, after I have cas again came fluttering up to tell us, that the assured you, that I will look still more narrowly footman, the very footman, was again at the into myself; and that I am

door, and inquired, whether Mr Lovelace and Your equally sincere and affectionate his lady, by name, had not lodgings in this

CL. HARLOWE. house? He asked, he told Dorcas, for no harm.

But his disavowing of harm, was a demonstra

tion with my apprehensive fair-one, that harm LETTER CXX.

was intended. And, as the fellow had not been

answered by Dorcas, I proposed to go down to MR LOVELACE TO JOHN BELFORD, ESQ. the street-parlour, and hear what he had to say.

I see your causeless terror, my dearest life,

Sat. Evening. said I, and your impatienceWill you be pleaI had a charming airing. No return of my sed to walk down-and, without being obsermalady. My heart perfectly easy, how could ved, (for he shall come no farther than the parmy stomach be otherwise ?

lour-door,) you may hear all that passes ? But, when I came home, I found that my She consented. We went down. Dorcas bid sweet soul had been alarmed by a new incident the man come forward. Well, friend, what is

- The inquiry after us both, in a very suspi- your business with Mr and Mrs Lovelace? cious manner, and that by description of our Bowing, scraping, I am sure you are the genpersons, and not by names, by a servant in'a tleman, sir. Why, sir, my business is only to blue livery turned up and trimmed with yellow. know if your honour be here, and to be spoken

Dorcas was called to him, as the upper ser- with; or if you shall be here for any time? vant; and, she refusing to answer any of the Whom came you from? fellow's questions, unless he told his business, From a gentleman who ordered me to say, if and from whom he came, the fellow (as short I was made to tell, but not else, it was from a as she) said, that, if she would not answer him, friend of Mr John Harlowe, Mrs Lovelace's perhaps she might answer somebody else ; and eldest uncle. went away out of humour.

The dear creature was ready to sink upon Dorcas hurried up to her lady, and alarmed this. It was but of late that she had provided her, not only with the fact, but with her own herself with salts. She pulled them out. conjectures ; adding, that he was an ill-looking Do you know anything of Colonel Morden, fellow, and she was sure could come for no friend? said I. good.

No; I never heard of his name. The livery and the features of the servant Of Captain Singleton ? were particularly inquired after, and as particu- No, sir. But the gentleman, my master, is a larly described — Lord bless her! no end of her captain too. alarms, she thought! And then did her appre- What is his name? hensions anticipate every evil that could hap- I don't know if I should tell. pen.

There can be no harm in telling the gentleShe wished Mr Lovelace would come in. man's name, if you come upon a good account.

Mr Lovelace came in soon after ; all lively, That I do; for my master told me so; and grateful, full of hopes, of duty, of love, to thank there is not an honester gentleman on the face his charmer, and to congratulate with her upon of God's yearth.-Ilis name is Captain Tomlinthe cure she had performed. And then she told son, sir. the story, with all its circumstances; and Dor

I don't know such a one. cas, to point her lady's fears, told us, that the I believe not, sir. He was pleased to say, he servant was a sun-burnt fellow, and looked as don't know your honour, sir ; but I heard him if he had been at sea.

say as how he should not be an unwelcome viHe was then, no doubt, Captain Singleton's sitor to you for all that. servant, and the next news she should hear, Do you know such a man as Captain Tomwas, that the house was surrounded by a whole linson, my dearest life, [aside,] your uncle's ship's crew; the vessel lying no farther off, as friend? she understood, than Rotherhithe.

No; but my uncle may have acquaintance, Impossible, I said. Such an attempt would no doubt, that I don't know. But I hope [tremnot be ushered in by such a manner of inquiry. bling] this is not a trick. And why may it not rather be a servant of your Well, friend, if your master has anything to cousin Morden, with notice of his arrival, and say to Mr Lovelace, you may tell him, that Mr of his design to attend you ?

Lovelace is here ; and will see him whenever he This surmise delighted her. Her apprehen- pleases. sions went off, and she was at leisure to congra- The dear creature looked as if afraid that my engagement was too prompt for my own safety; came running up in a hurry-she set even my and away went the fellow-I wondering, that heart into a palpitation-thump, thump, thump, she might not wonder, that this Captain Tomlin- like a precipitated pendulum in a clock-case son, whoever he were, came not himself, or sent flutter, flutter, Autter, my charmer's, as by her not a letter the second time, when he had rea- sweet bosom rising to her chin I saw. son to suppose that I might be here.

This lower class of people, my beloved herMeantime, for fear that this should be a con- self observed, were for ever aiming at the stutrivance of James Harlowe, who, I said, loved pid wonderful, and for making even common inplotting, though he had not a head turned for cidents matter of surprise. it, I gave some precautionary directions to the Why the devil, said I to the wench, this servants, and the women, whom, for the greater alarming hurry? - And with your spread finparade, I assembled before us; and my beloved gers, and your 0 Madams, and O Sirs !-and was resolved not to stir abroad till she saw the be cursed to you! Would there have been a issue of this odd affair.

second of time difference, had you come up And here must"I close, though in 80 great a slowly? puzzle.

Captain Tomlinson, sir ! Only let me add, that poor Belton wants Captain Devilson, what care I ?-Do you see thee; for I dare not stir for my life.

how you have disordered your lady ? Mowbray and Tourville skulk about like va- Good Mr Lovelace, said my charmer, tremgabonds, without heads, without hands, with- bling, (see Jack, when she has an end to serve, out souls ; having neither you nor me to con- I am good Mr Lovelace,] ifif my brotherduct them. They tell me, they shall rust be- if Captain Singleton should appear-pray now yond the power of oil or action to brighten them -I beseech you-let me beg of you-to govern up, or give them motion.

your temper—My brother is my brother-CapHow goes it with thy uncle?

tain Singleton is but an agent.

My dearest life, folding my arms about her,

[when she asks favours, thought I, the devil's LETTER CXXI.

in it, if she will not allow of such innocent free

dom as this, from good Mr Lovelace too,] you MR LOVELACE TO JOHN BELFORD, ESQ. shall be witness of all that passes between us.

Dorcas, desire the gentleman to walk up.

Sunday, May 28. Let me retire to my chamber first !--Let me This story of Captain Tomlinson employed not be known to be in the house ! us not only for the time we were together last Charming dear !—Thou seest, Belford, she is night, but all the while we sat at breakfast this afraid of leaving me !—0 the little witchcrafts ! morning. She would still have it that it was the Were it not for surprises now-and-then, how prelude to some mischief from Singleton. I in- would an honest man know where to have sisted (according to my former hint) that it them? might much more probably be a method taken She withdrew to listen.-And, though this inby Colonel Morden to alarm her, previous to a cident has not turned out to answer all I wish personal visit. Travelled gentlemen affected to ed from it, yet is it necessary, if I would acsurprise in this manner. And why, dearest quaint thee with my whole circulation, to be creature, said I, must everything that happens, very particular in what passed between Captain which we cannot immediately account for, be Tomlinson and me. what we least wish ?

She had had so many disagreeable things be- Enter Captain Tomlinson, in a riding-dress, fal her of late, that her fears were too often

whip in hand. stronger than her hopes.

Your servant, sir,--Mr Lovelace, I presume ? And this, madam, makes me apprehensive, My name is Lovelace, sir. that

you will get into so low-spirited a way, that Excuse the day, sir --Be pleased to excuse you will not be able to enjoy the happiness that my garb. I am obliged to go out of town directseems to await us.

ly, that I may return at night. Her duty and her gratitude, she gravely said, The day is a good day. Your garb needs no to the Dispenser of all good, would secure her, apology. she hoped, against unthankfulness. And a When I sent my servant, I did not know that thankful spirit was the same as a joyful one. I should find time to do myself this honour. All

So, Belford, før all her future joys she de- that I thought I could do to oblige my friend pends entirely upon the invisible Good. She is this journey, was only to assure myself of your certainly right; since those who fix least upon abode; and whether there were a probability of second causes are the least likely to be disap- being admitted to the speech either of you, or pointed-And is not this gravity for her gra- your lady. vity ?

Sir, you best know your own motives. What She had hardly done speaking, when Dorcas your time will permit you to do, you also best.:

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