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of all obligation to you. You know, I never ardently pressed to celebrate by me To this was made you promises. You know, that you are owing the ready offence you took at my four not under any to me.—My broken fortunes I friends; and at the unavailing attempt I made matter not

to see a dropt letter ; little imagining, from what She was proceeding—My dearest life, said I, two such ladies could write to each other, that I have been all this time, though you fill me there could be room for mortal displeasure—To with doubts of your favour, busy in the nuptial this was owing the week's distance you

held me preparations. I am actually in treaty for equi- at, till you knew the issue of another applicapage.

tion.-But, when they had rejected that; when Equipage, sir !-Trappings, tinsel!—What is you had sent my cold-received proposals to Miss equipage-what is life—what is anything, to Howe for her approbation or advice, as indeed a creature sunk so low as I am in my own opi. I advised; and had honoured me with your comnion !-Labouring under a father's curse ! pany at the play on Saturday night; (my whole Unable to look backward without self-reproach, behaviour unobjectionable to the last hour ;) or forward without terror !—These reflections must not, madam, the sudden change in your strengthened by every cross accident !-And conduct the very next morning, astonish and what but cross accidents befal me!-All my distress me?-And this persisted in with still darling schemes dashed in pieces, all my hopes stronger declarations, after you had received the at an end ; deny me not the liberty to refuge impatiently-expected letter from Miss Howe; myself in some obscure corner, where neither must I not conclude, that all was owing to her the enemies you have made me, nor the few influence; and that some other application or friends you have left me, may ever hear of the project was meditating, that made it necessary supposed rash-one, till those happy moments are to keep me again at distance till the result were at hand, which shall expiate for all!

known, and which was to deprive me of you for I had not a word to say for myself. Such a ever? For was not that your constantly-prowar in my mind had I never known. Grati- posed preliminary ?-Well, madam, might I be tude, and admiration of the excellent creature wrought up to a half-phrensy by this apprehenbeforeme,combating with villainous habit, with sion; and well might I charge you with hating resolutions so premeditatedly made, and with me.-And now, dearest creature, let me know, views so much gloried in -An hundred new I once more ask you, what is Miss Howe's opicontrivances in my head, and in my heart, that, nion of my proposals ? to be honest, as it is called, must all be given Were I disposed to debate with you, Mr Loveup, by a heart delighting in intrigue and diffi- lace, I could very easily answer your fine haculty—Miss Howe's virulences endeavoured to rangue. But at present, I shall only say, that be recollected—yet recollection refusing to bring your ways have been very unaccountable. You them forward with the requisite efficacy-I had seem to me, if your meanings were always just, certainly been a lost man, had not Dorcas come to have taken great pains to embarrass them. seasonably in with a letter.—On the superscrip- Whether owing in you to the want of a clear tion written-Be pleased, sir, to open it now. head, or a sound heart, I cannot determine ; but

I retired to the window-opened it-it was it is to the want of one of them, I verily think, from Dorcas herself.- These the contents- that I am to ascribe the greatest part of your “ Be pleased to detain my lady: a paper of im- strange conduct. portance to transcribe. I will cough when I Curse upon the heart of the little devil, said have done."

I, who instigates you to think so hardly of the I put the paper in my pocket, and turned to faithfullest heart in the world! my charmer, less disconcerted, as she, by that How dare you, sir !-And there she stopt ; time, had also a little recovered herself.-One having almost overshot herself; as I designed favour, dearest creature-Let me but know, she should. whether Miss Howe approves or disapproves of How dare I what, madam? And I looked my proposals ? I know her to be my enemy. with meaning. How dare I what ? I was intending to account to you for the change Vile man-And do you-And there again she of behaviour you accused me of at the begin- stopt. ning of the conversation; but was diverted from Do I what, madam ?-And why vile man? it by your vehemence. Indeed, my beloved crea- How dare you curse anybody in my presence? ture, you were very vehement. Do you think O the sweet receder! But that was not to go it must not be matter of high regret to me, to off so with a Lovelace. find my wishes so often delayed and postponed Why then, dearest creature, is there anybody in favour of your predominant view to a recon- that instigates you ?- If there be, again I curse ciliation with relations who will not be recon- them, be they whom they will. ciled to you?—To this was owing your declining She was in a charming pretty passion. And to celebrate our nuptials before we came to town, this was the first time that I had the odds in my though you were so atrociously treated by your favour. sister, and your whole family; and though so Well, madam, it is just as I thought. And!

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now I know how to account for a temper that I all silk and silver at the bottom-all soft, bright, hope is not natural to you.

and charming. Artful wretch! and is it thus you would en- I was, however, too much vexed, disconcerttrap me? But know, sir, that I received letters ed, mortified, to hinder her from retiring. And from nobody but Miss Howe. Miss Howe likes yet she had not gone if Dorcas had not coughed. some of your ways as little as I do; for I have The wench came in, as soon as her lady had set everything before her. Yet she is thus far retired, and gave me the copy she had taken. your enemy, as she is mine. She thinks I could And what should it be, but of the answer the not refuse your offers ; but endeavour to make truly-admirable creature had intended to give the best of my lot. And now you have the truth. to my written proposals in relation to settleWould to Heaven you were capable of dealing ments ? with equal sincerity!

I have but just dipt into this affecting paper, I am, madam. And here, on my knee, I re- Were I to read it attentively, not a wink should new my vows, and my supplication, that you I sleep this night. To-morrow it shall obtain will make me yours. Yours for ever. And let my serious consideration. me have cause to bless you and Miss Howe in the same breath. To say the truth, Belford, I had before begun

LETTER CIX. to think that the vixen of a girl, who certainly likes not Hickman, was in love with me.

MR LOVELACE TO JOHN BELFORD, ESQ. Rise, sir, from your too-ready knees; and mock me not !

Tuesday Morning, May 23. Too-ready knees, thought I! Though this The dear creature desires to be excused seehumble posture so little affects this proud beau- ing me till evening. She is not very well, as ty, she knows not how much I have obtained of Dorcas tells me. others of her sex, nor how often I have been for- Read here, if thou wilt, the paper transcribed given for the last attempts, by kneeling. by Dorcas. It is impossible that I should pro

Mock you, madam! And I arose, and re-urged ceed with my projects against this admirable her for the day. . I blamed myself, at the same woman, were it not that I am resolved, after a time, for the invitation I had given to Lord M., few trials more, if as nobly sustained as those as it might subject me to delay from his infir- she has passed through, to make her-if she mities; but told her, that I would write to him really hate me not-legally mine. to excuse me, if she had no objection; or to give him the day she would give me, and not wait for him, if he could not come in time.

My day, sir, said she, is never. Be not surpri- “ When a woman is married, that supreme sed. A person of politeness judging between us, earthly obligation requires, that in all instances, would not be surprised that I say so. But in- where her husband's real honour is concerned, deed, Mr Lovelace, [and wept through impa- she should yield her own will to his. But, betience,] you either know not how to treat with forehand, I could be glad, conformably to what a mind of the least degree of delicacy, notwith- I have always signified, to have the most exstanding your birth and education, or you are plicit assurances, that every possible way should an ungrateful man ; and (after a pause J'a worse be tried to avoid litigation with my father. Time than ungrateful one. But I will retire. I will and patience will subdue all things. My prossee you again to-morrow. I cannot before. I pects of happiness are extremely contracted. A think I hate you. You may look. Indeed I think husband's right will be always the same. In I hate you. And if, upon a re-examination of my my lifetime I could wish nothing to be done of own heart, I find I do, I would not for the world this sort. Your circumstances, sir, will not obthat matters should go on farther between us. lige you to extort violently from him what is in

But I see, I see, she does not hate me! How his hands. All that depends upon me, either it would mortify my vanity, if I thought there with regard to my person, to my diversions, or was a woman in the world, much more this, to the economy that no married woman, of that could hate me! 'Tis evident, villain as she whatever rank or quality, should be above inthinks me, that I should not be an odious vil- specting, shall be done, to prevent a necessity lain, if I could but at last in one instance cease for such measures being taken. And if there to be a villain. She could not hold it, deter- will be no necessity for them, it is to be hoped mined as she had thought herself, I saw by her that motives less excusable will not have force eyes, the moment I endeavoured to dissipate her —motives which must be founded in a littleness apprehensions, on my too-ready knees, as she of mind, which a woman, who has not that litcalls them. The moment the rough covering tleness of mind, will be under such temptations my teazing behaviour has thrown over her af- as her duty will hardly be able at all times to fections is quite removed, I doubt not to find check, to despise her husband for having; es


your study.

pecially in cases where her own family, so much that truly concerned your honour: no, sir; I a part of herself, and which will have obliga- would be as delicate in such as you yourself, tions upon her (though then but secondaryones,) more delicate, I will venture to say, because from which she can never be freed, is intimate more uniformly so. How vain, how contemptily concerned.

ble, is that pride, which shew sitself in standing “ This article, then, I urge to your most se- upon diminutive observances, and gives up and rious consideration, as what lies next my heart. makes a jest of the most important duties ! I enter not here minutely into the fatal misun- “ This article being considered as I wish, all derstanding between them and you. The fault the rest will be easy. Were I to accept of the may be in both ; but, sir, yours was the foun- handsome separate provision you seem to indation-fault; at least, you gave a too plausible tend me, added to the considerable sums arisen pretence for my brother's antipathy to work up- from my grandfather's estate since his death, on. Condescension was no part of

more considerable than perhaps you may supYou chose to bear the imputations laid to your pose, from your offer,-) should think it my charge, rather than to make it your endeavour duty to lay up for the family good, and for unto obviate them.

foreseen events, out of it; for as to my donations, “ But this may lead into hateful recrimina- I would generally confine myself in them to the tion.—Let it be remembered, I will only say in tenth of my income, be it what it would. I aim this place, that, in their eye, you have robbed at no glare in what I do of that sort. All I wish them of a daughter they doated upon, and that for is the power of relieving the lame, the blind, their resentments on this occasion rise but in the sick, and the industrious poor, and those proportion to their love and their disappoint- whom accident has made so, or sudden distress ment. If they were faulty in some of the mea- reduced. The common or bred beggars I leave sures they took, while they themselves did not to others, and to the public provision. They think so, who shall judge for them? You, sir, cannot be lower, perhaps they wish not to be who will judge everybody as you please, and higher; and, not able to do for every one, I aim will let nobody judge you in your own particu- not at works of supererogation. Two hundred lar, must not be their judge. It may, therefore, pounds a-year would do all I wish to do of the be expected that they will stand out.

separate sort: for all above I would content As for myself, sir, I must leave it (so seems myself to ask you ; except, mistrusting your it to be destined) to your justice, to treat me as own economy, you would give up to my mayou shall think Í deserve. But if your future nagement and keeping, in order to provide for behaviour to them is not governed by that harsh future contingencies, a larger portion, for which, sounding implacableness which you charge up- as your steward, I would regularly account. on some of their tempers, the splendour of your As to clothes, I have particularly two suits, family, and the excellent character of some of which, having been only in a manner tried on, them, (of all, indeed, unless your own con- would answer for any present occasion. Jewels will, on better consideration, do everything I have of my grandmother's, which want only science furnishes you with one only exception,) new-setting; another set I have, which on parwith them. For they may be overcome; per- ticular days I used to wear. Although these are haps, however, with the more difficulty, as the not sent me, I have no doubt, being merely pergreatly prosperous less bear control and disap- sonals, but they will, when I send for them in pointment than others; for I will own to you, another name; till when I should not choose to that I have often in secret lamented, that their great acquirements have been a snare to them; As to your complaints of my diffidences perhaps as great a snare as some other accidents and the like, I appeal to your own heart, if it als have been to you, which, being less imme- be possible for you to make my case your own diately your own gifts, you have still less reason for one moment, and to retrospect some parts than they to value yourself upon them.

of your behaviour, words, and actions, whether “Let me only on this subject further observe, I am not rather to be justified than censured; that condescension is not meanness. There is a and whether, of all men in the world, avowing glory in yielding, that hardly any violent spirit what you avow, you ought not to think so. can judge of. My brother, perhaps, is no more you do not, let me admonish you, sir, from the sensible this thai you; but as you have ta- very great mismatch that then must appear to lents which he has not, (who, however, has, as be in our minds, never to seek, nor so much as I hope, that regard for morals, the want of wish, to bring about the most intimate union of which makes one of his objections to you,) I interests between yourself and could wish it may not be owing to you, that

“ CLARISSA HARLowe.” your mutual dislikes to each other do not sub- May 20. side ;– for it is my earnest hope, that in time you may see each other, without exciting the fears of a wife and a sister for the consequence. The original of this charming paper, as DorNot that I should wish you to yield in points cas tells me, was torn almost in two ;-in one

wear any.

of her pets I suppose! What business have the to Miss Howe's advice, were most my friend or sex, whose principal glory is meekness, and pa- hers. tience, and resignation, to be in a passion, I The very suspicion of this will do her no trow? Will not she, who allows herself such good, for I cannot bear to be artfully dealt with. liberties as a maiden, take greater when mar- People love to enjoy their own peculiar talents rped:

in monopoly, as I may say. I am aware that it And a wife to be in a passion ! -Let me tell will strengthen thy arguments against me in the ladies, it is an impudent thing, begging her behalf; but I know every tittle thou canst their pardon, and as imprudent as impudent, say upon it. Spare, therefore, thy wambling for a wife to be in a passion,-if she mean not nonsense, I desire thee, and leave this sweet exeternal separation or wicked defiance by it. For cellence and me to our fate, that will determine is it not rejecting at once all that expostulatory for us, as it shall please itself; for, as Cowley meekness and gentle reasoning, mingled with says, sighs as gentle, and graced with bent knees, supplicating hands, and eyes lifted up to your

“ An unseen hand makes all our moves : imperial countenance, just running over, that And some are great, and some are small; you should make a reconciliation speedy, and

Some climb to good, some from good fortune fall : as lasting as speedy? Even suppos the hus

Some wise men, and some fools we call : band is in the wrong, will not this being so Figures, alas ! of speech !— For destiny plays us all.” give the greater force to her expostulation?

Now I think of it, a man should be in the But, after all, I am sorry, almost sorry,- for wrong now-and-then, to make his wife shine. how shall I do to be quite sorry, when it is not Miss Howe tells my charmer, that adversity is given to me to be so? —that I cannot, until I her shining time. "'Tis a generous thing in a have made further trials, resolve upon wedlock. man to make his wife shine at his own expense;

I have just read over again this intended anto give her leave to triumph over him by pa- swer to my proposals; and how I adore her for tient reasoning; for, were he to be too imperial it! to acknowledge his fault on the spot, she will But yet—another yet !—she has not given it find the benefit of her duty and submission in or sent it to me. It is not therefore her answer. future, and in the high opinion he will conceive It is not written for me, though to me. of her prudence and obligingness and so, by Nay, she has not intended to send it to me: degrees, she will become her master's master. she has even torn it, perhaps with indignation,

But for a wife to come up with kimboed arm, as thinking it too good for me. By this action the other hand thrown out, perhaps with a she absolutely retracts it. Why, then, does my pointing finger,-Look ye here, str !--Take no- foolish fondness seek to establish for her the tice !- If you are wrong, I'll be wrong!-if you same merit in my heart as if she avowed it?are in a passion, I'u be in a passion !-rebuff Pr’ythee, dear Belford, once more, leave us to for rebuff, sir !-If you fly, I'll tear !-if you our fate; and do not thou interpose with thy swear, l’ú curse! And the same room, and the nonsense, to weaken a spirit already too squeamsame bed, shall not hold us, sir !—For remem- ish, and strengthen a conscience that has deber I am married, sir I am a wife, sir !—You clared itself of her party. can't help yourself, sir !_Your honour, as well Then, again, remember thyrecent discoveries, as your peace, is in my keeping; and if you like Lovelace ; remember her indifference, attended not this treatment, you may have worse, sir ! with all the appearance of contempt and hatred.

Ah! Jack, Jack! what man who has observed View her, even now, wrapt up in reserve and these things, either implied or expressed in other mystery-meditating plots, as far as thou knowfamilies, would wish to be a husband ! est, against the sovereignty thou hast, by right

Dorcas found this paper in one of the drawers of conquest, obtained over her. Remember, in of her lady's dressing-table. She was re-peru- short, all thou hast threatened to remember sing it, as she supposes, when the honest wench against this insolent beauty, who is a rebel to carried my message to desire her to favour me the power she has listed under. at the tea-table, for she saw her pop a paper in- But yet, how dost thou propose to subdue thy to the drawer as she came in; and there, on her sweet enemy? Abhorred be force-be the nemistress's going to meet me in the dining-room, cessity of force, if that can be avoided !—There she found it,--and to be this.

is no triumph in force; no conquest over the But I had better not to have had a copy of it will; no prevailing by gentle degrees over the as far as I know; for determined as I was be- gentle passions !—force is the devil! fore upon my operations, it instantly turned all My cursed character, as I have often said, my resolutions in her favour. Yet I would give was against me at setting out. Yet is she not something to be convinced that she did not pop a woman? Cannot I find one yielding or but it into her drawer before the wench, in order

for half-yielding moment, if she do not absolutely me to see it; and perhaps, if I were to take no- hate me? tice of it, to discover whether Dorcas, according But with what can I tempt her?-Riches

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she was born to and despises, knowing what sionate, and, as some would call them, honest they are. JEWELS and ornaments, to a mind sensibilities, go off?-Why,Miss Howe will tell so much a jewel and so richly set, her worthy thee: she says, I am the devil.-By my conconsciousness will not let her value. Love-If science, I think he has at present a great share she be susceptible of love, it seems to be so much under the direction of prudence, that one There's ingenuousness !-How I lay myself unguarded moment, I fear, cannot be reason- open to thee !-But seest thou not, that the ably hoped for; and so much · VIGILANCE, so more I say against myself, the less room there much apprehensiveness, that her fears are ever is for thee to take me to task ?-0, Belford, aforehand with her dangers. Then her love Belford ! I cannot, cannot, (at least at present,) OF VIRTUE seems to be principle, native prin- I cannot marry. ciple, or, if not native, so deeply rooted, that its Then her family, my bitter enemies—to supfibres have struck into her heart; and, as she ple to them or if I do not, to make her as grew up, so blended and twisted themselves unhappy as she can be from my attempts. with the strings of life, that I doubt there is no Then, does she not love them too much, me separating of the one without cutting the others too little ? asunder.

She now seems to despise me: Miss Howe What, then, can be done to make such a declares, that she really does despise me. To matchless creature get over the first tests, in or- be despised by a wife—what a thought is that! der to put her to the grand proof, whether, once To be excelled by a wife, too, in every part of overcome, she will not be always overcome? praiseworthy knowledge !—To take lessons, to

Our mother and her nymphs say, I am a per- take instructions, from a wire ! More than fect craven and no Lovelace,-and so I think. despise me, she herself has taken time to conBut this is no simpering, smiling charmer, as I sider whether she does not hate me. I hate you, have found others to be, when I have touched Lovelace, with my whole heart, said she to me upon affecting subjects at a distance; as once but yesterday. My soul is above thee, man! or twice I have tried to her—the mother intro- Urge me not to tell thee how sincerely I think ducing them, to make sex palliate the freedom my soul above thee !—How poor, indeed, was I to sex, when only we three together. She is then, even in my own heart! So visible a supeabove the affectation of not seeming to under- riority to so proud a spirit as mine!-And here stand you. She shews by her displeasure, and from below, (from below indeed !) from these a fierceness not natural to her eye, that she women, I am so goaded onjudges of an impure heart by an impure mouth, Yet 'tis poor, too, to think myself a machine and darts dead at once even the embryo hopes in the hands of such wretches! I am no maof an encroaching lover, however distantly in- chine. Lovelace, thou art base to thyself but sinuated, before the meaning-hint can dawn in- to suppose thyself a machine. to double entendre.

But, having gone thus far, I should be unBy my faith, Jack, as I sit gazing upon her, happy, if, after marriage, in the petulance of ill my whole soul in my eyes, contemplating her humour, I had it to reproach myself, that I did perfections, and thinking, when I have seen her not try her to the utmost. And yet I don't easy and serene, what would be her thoughts know how it is, but this lady, the moment I did she know my heart as well as I know it; come into her presence, half assimilates me to when I behold her disturbed and jealous, and her own virtue. Once or twice, to say nothing think of the justness of her apprehensions, and of her triumph over me on Sunday night, I was that she cannot fear so much as there is room prevailed upon to fluster myself, with an intenfor her to fear, my heart often misgives me. tion to make some advances, which, if obliged

And must, think I, O creature so divinely ex- toʻrecede, I might lay upon raised spirits; but cellent, and so beloved of my soul! those arms, the instant I beheld 'her, I was soberized into those encircling arms, that would make a mo- awe and reverence; and the majesty of her even narch happy, be used to repel brutal force,- visible purity first damped, and then extinguishall their strength, unavailingły perhaps, exerted ed, my double flame. to repel it, and to defend a person so delicately What a surprisingly powerful effect, so much framed? Can violence enter into the heart of and so long in my power, she,-so instigated by a wretch who might entitle himself to all her some of her own sex, and so stimulated by paswilling yet virtuous love, and make the bless- sion, 1:—How can this be accounted for in a ings he aspireth after her duty to confer?- Lovelace ? Begone, villain-purposes ! Sink ye all to the But what a heap of stuff have I written ! hell that could only inspire ye !--And I am then How have I been run away with !-By what? ready to throw myself at her feet, to confess my -Canst thou say by what?-O thou lurking villainous designs, to avow my repentance, and varletess, conscience! is it thou that hast thus put it out of my power to act unworthily by made me of party against myself? How camest such an excellence.

thou in? In what disguise, thou egregious How then comes it, that all these compas- haunter of my more agreeable hours ?--Stand

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