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against all her family; Mrs Norton's weight has his dirt, though we soil our fingers in doing it! been tried upon Mrs Harlowe, as well as Mr He has not been guilty of direct indecency to Hickman's upon the uncle; but never were there," you.” It seems extraordinary to Miss Howe that says

the vixen, “such determined brutes in the I have not." Nor dare he!" She should be world. Her uncle concludes her ruined already." sure of that. If women have such things in their Is not that a call upon me, as well as a reproach? heads, why should not I in my heart? “ Not - They all expected applications from her so much of a devil as that comes to neither. when in distress--but were resolved not to stir Such villainous intentions would have shewn an inch to save her life.” She was “ accused of themselves before now if I had them.”—Lord premeditation and contrivance." Miss Howe“is help them ! concerned," she tells her," for the revenge my She then puts her friend upon urging for setpride may put me upon taking for the distance tlements, licence, and so forth.-“ No room for she has kept me at”- and well she may.- It is delicacy now," she says; and tells her what she now evident to her, that she must be mine (for

“ to bring all forward from me." Is her cousin Morden, it seems, is set against her it not as clear to thee, Jack, as it is to me, that too-an act of necessity, of convenience !-thy I should have carried my point long ago, but for friend, Jack, to be already made a woman's con- this vixen ?-She reproaches her for having movenience! Is this to be borne by a Lovelace ? DESTY'd away, as she calls it, more than one op

I shall make great use of this letter. From portunity, that she ought not to have slipt.-Thus Miss Howe's hints of what passed between her thou seest, that the noblest of the sex mean nouncle Harlowe and Hickman, [it must be Hick- thing in the world by their shyness and distance, man, ] I can give room for my invention to play; but to pound the poor fellow they dislike not, for she tells her, that “ she will not reveal all.” when he comes into their purlieus. I must endeavour to come at this letter myself. Though " tricked into this man's power,” she I must have the very words ; extracts will not tells her, she is “not meanly subjugated to it.” do. This letter, when I have it, must be my There are hopes of my reformation, it seems, compass to steer by.

“ from my reverence for her; since before her The fire of friendship then blazes and crackles. I never had any reverence for what was good !" I never before imagined that so fervent a friend- I am “ a great, a specious deceiver.". I thank ship could subsist between two sister-beauties, her for this, however. A good moral use, she both toasts. But even here it may be inflamed says, may be made of my“ having prevailed upby opposition, and by that contradiction which on her to swerve." I am glad that any good may gives vigour to female spirits of a warm and ro- flow from my actions. mantic turn.

Annexed to this letter is a paper the most She raves about “ coming up, if by so doing saucy that ever was written of a mother by a she could prevent so noble a creature from stoop- daughter. There are in it such free reflections ing too low, or save her from ruin."-One reed upon widows and bachelors, that I cannot but to support another! I think I will contrive to wonder how Miss Howe came by her learning. bring her up.

Sir George Colmar, I can tell thee, was a greatHow comes it to pass, that I cannot help be- er fool than thy friend, if she had it all for noing pleased with this virago's spirit, though I thing. suffer by it? Had I her but here, I'd engage, in The contents of this paper acquaint Miss Hara week's time, to teach her submission without lowe, that her uncle Antony has been making reserve. What pleasure should I have in break- proposals of marriage to her mother. ing such a spirit! I should wish for her but for The old fellow's heart ought to be a tough one, one month, in all, I think. She would be too if he succeed; or she who broke that of a much tame and spiritless for me after that. How worthier man, the late Mr Howe, will soon get sweetly pretty to see the two lovely friends, rid of him. when humbled and tame, both sitting in the But be this as it may, the stupid family is darkest corner of a room, arm-in-arm, weeping made more irreconcilable than ever to their godand sobbing for each other !—and I their em- dess-daughter for old Antony's thoughts of marperor, their then acknowledged emperor, reclined rying ; so I am more secure of her than ever. at my ease in the same room, uncertain to which And yet I believe at last, that my tender heart I should first, grand signior like, throw out my will be moved in her favour. For I did not wish handkerchief!

that she should have nothing but persecution Again mind the girl : “ She is enraged at the and distress. But why loves she the brutes, Harlowes ;" she is angry at her own mother;" as Miss Howe justly calls them, so much ; me she is "exasperated against her foolish and low- so little ? vanity'd Lovelace.” Foolish, a little toad ! I have still more unpardonable transcripts [God forgive me for calling a virtuous girl a from other letters. toad !]-Let us stoop to lift the wretch out of

woman who has given her most intimate friend reason to say, she despises me!--A Lovelace to

be despised, Jack ! LETTER CVI.

“ His clenched fist to his forehead on your

leaving him in just displeasure”-that is, when MR LOVELACE TO JOHN BELFORD, ESQ.

she was not satisfied with my ardours, if it please

ye!- I remember the motion; but her back was The next letter is of such a nature, that, I towards me at the time.t Are these watchful I dare say, these proud rogues would not have ladies all eye ?-But observe what follows: “I had it fall into my hands for the world.* wish it had been a pole-axe, and in the hands of I see by it to what her displeasure with me,

his worst enemy." in relation to my proposals, was owing. They I will have patience, Jack; I will have pawere not summed up, it seems, with the warmth, tience! My day is at hand. Then will I steel with the ardour, which she had expected. my heart with these remembrances.

This whole letter was transcribed by Dorcas, But here is a scheme to be thought of, in orto whose lot it fell. Thou shalt have copies of der to “get my fair prize out of my hands, in them all at full length shortly.

case I give her reason to suspect me. “Men of our cast,” this little devil says, This indeed alarms me. Now the contention “she fancies, cannot have the ardours that

ho becomes arduous. Now wilt thou not wonder, nest men have.” Miss Howe has very pretty if I let loose my, plotting genius upon them fancies, Jack. Charming girl! Would to Heaven both. I will not be out-Norris'd, Belford. I knew whether my fair-one answers her as free

But once more, “ She has no notion," she ly as she writes ! "Twould vex a man's heart, says, " that I can or dare mean her dishonour. that this virago should have come honestly by But then the man is a fool—that's all.”-I her fancies.

should indeed be a fool, to proceed as I do, and Who knows but I may have half a dozen crea- mean matrimony !-" However, since you are tures to get off my hands, before I engage for thrown upon a fool,” says she, “ marry the fool life?-Yet, lest this should mean me a compli- the first opportunity; and though I doubt that ment, as if I would reform, she adds her belief, this man will be the most unmanageable of fools, that she “must not expect me to be honest on as all witty and vain fools are, take him as a this side my grand climacteric.” She has a high punishment, since you cannot as a reward.”opinion of her sex, to think they can charm so Is there any bearing this, Belford ? long a man so well acquainted with their iden- But,“ such men as myself, are the men that ticalness.

women do not naturally hate.”—True as the “He to suggest delays,” she says, “ from a gospel, Jack !—The truth is out at last. Have compliment to be made to Lord M!!"-Yes, I, I not always told thee so ? Sweet creatures and my dear.—Because a man has not been accus- true christians these young girls! They love tomed to be dutiful, must he never be dutiful ? their enemies. But rakes in their hearts all of

- In so important a case as this too! the hearts them ! “ Like turns to like ;" that's the thing. of his whole family are engaged in it!“ You Were I not well assured of the truth of this ob did, indeed,” says she, “ want an interposing servation of the vixen, I should have thought it friend—but were I to have been in your situa- worth while, if not to be a good man, to be more tion, I would have torn his eyes out, and left it of a hypocrite, than I found it needful to be. to his heart to furnish the reason for it.” See ! But in the letter I came at to-day, while she See! What sayest thou to this, Jack ?

was at church, her scheme is farther opened ; “ Villain-fellow that he is !” follow. And and a cursed one it is. for what? Only for wishing that the next day were to be my happy one ; and for being duti- [Mr Lovelace then transcribes, from his shortful to my nearest relation.

hand notes, that part of Miss Howe's letter, “ It is the cruellest of fates,” she says, “ for which relates to the design of engaging Mrs a woman to be forced to have a man whom her Townsend (in case of necessity) to give her heart despises.” That is what I wanted to be protection till Colonel Morden come ; and sure of.--I was afraid, that my beloved was too repeats his vows of revenge ; especially for conscious of her talents; of her superiority! I

these words : “ That should he attempt anywas afraid that she indeed despised me.--And I thing that would make him obnoxious to the cannot bear to think she does. But, Belford, I laws of society, she might have a fair riddance do not intend that this lady shall be bound down of him, either by flight or the gallows, no to so cruel a fate. Let me perish if I marry a matter which.” He then adds ]

• See Letter XCV. of this Volume.
+ She tells Miss Howe, that she saw this motion in the pier-glass. See Letter XCIV. of this Vol.

See Letter CIII. of this Volume.

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'Tis my pride to subdue girls who know. too and to disoblige me, if now anything happens much to doubt their knowledge ; and to convince to set us at variance again. them, that they know too little, to defend them

He is very importunate to see me. He has selves from the inconveniencies of knowing too desired to attend me to church. He is angry much.

that I have declined to breakfast with him. I How passion drives a man on! (proceeds he.) am sure that I should not have been at my own - I have written a prodigious quantity in a very liberty if I had. I bid Dorcas tell him, that I few hours ! Now my resentments are warm, I desired to have this day to myself. I would see will see, and, perhaps, will punish, this proud, him in the morning as early as he pleased. She this double-armed beauty. I have sent to tell says, she knows not what ails him, but that he her, that I must be admitted to sup with her. is out of humour with everybody. We have neither of us dined. She refused to He has sent again in a peremptory manner. drink tea in the afternoon; and I believe neither He warns me of Singleton. I sent him word, of us will have much stomach to our supper. that if he was not afraid of Singleton at the

playhouse last night, I need not at church to

day; so many churches to one playhouse. I

have accepted of his servant's proposed atten-
dance. But he is quite displeased, it seems. I
don't care. I will not be perpetually at his in-

solent beck.--Adieu, my dear, till I return.
Sunday Morning, Seven o'clock. The chair waits. He won't stop me, sure, as I
I was at the play last night with Mr Love- go down to it.
lace and Miss Horton. It is, you know, a
deep and most affecting tragedy in the reading.
You have my remarks upon it, in the little book
you made me write upon the principal acting- I did not see him as I went down. He is, it
plays. You will not wonder, that Miss Horton, seems, excessively out of humour. Dorcas says,
as well as I, was greatly moved at the repre- not with me neither, she believes; but some-
sentation, when I tell you, and have some plea- thing has vexed him. This is put on, perhaps,
sure in telling you, that Mr Lovelace himself to make me dine with him. But I will not, if
was very sensibly touched with some of the most I can help it. I shan't get rid of him for the
affecting scenes. I mention this in praise of the rest of the day, if I do.
author's performance; for I take Mr Lovelace
to be one of the most hard-hearted men in the
world. Upon my word, my dear, I do.

His behaviour, however, on this occasion, and He was very earnest to dine with me. But I on our return, was unexceptionable ; only that was resolved to carry this one small point; and he would oblige me to stay to supper with the so denied to dine myself. And, indeed, I women below, when we came back, and to sit endeavouring to write to my cousin Morden ; up with him and them till near one o'clock this and had begun three different times, without morning. I was resolved to be even with him ; being able to please myself. and, indeed, I am not very sorry to have the pre- He was very busy in writing, Dorcas says; tence; for I love to pass the Sundays by myself. and pursued it without dining, because I denied

To have the better excuse to avoid his teazing, him my company.
I am ready dressed to go to church this morn- He afterwards demanded, as I may say, to be
ing. I will go only to St James's church, and admitted to afternoon tea with me; and appeal-
in a chair, that I may be sure I can go out and ed by Dorcas to his behaviour to me last night;
come in when I please, without being intruded as if, as I sent him word by her, he thought he
upon by him, as I was twice before.

had a merit in being unexceptionable. How-
ever, I repeated my promise to meet him as ear-
ly, as he pleased in the morning, or to breakfast

with him.

Near Nine o'clock. Dorcas says, he raved; I heard him loud, and I HAVE your kind letter of yesterday. He I heard his servant fly from him, as I thought. knows I have. And I shall expect, that he will You, my dearest friend, say, in one of yours, be inquisitive next time I see him after your that you must have somebody to be angry at, opinion of his proposals. I doubted not your when your mother sets you up. I should be approbation of them, and had written an answer very loath to draw comparisons; but the workon that presumption ; which is ready for him. ings of passion, when indulged, are but too much He must study for occasions of procrastination, alike, whether in man or woman.


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See Letter L. of this Vol. Par. 1.

ty, so visible in her whole deportment, again He has just sent me word, that he insists up- took place. Surely, Belford, this is an angel. on supping with me. As we had been in a good And yet, had she not been known to be a female, train for several days past, I thought it not pru- they would not from babyhood have dressed her dent to break with him for little matters. Yet, as such, nor would she, but upon that convicto be, in a manner, threatened into his will, i tion, have continued the dress. know not how to bear that.

Let me ask you, madam, I beseech you

tell me, what I have done to deserve this distant treatment?

And let me ask you, Mr Lovelace, why are WHILE I was considering, he came up, and, my retirements to be thus invaded ? — What can tapping at my door, told me, in a very angry you have to say to me since last night, that I tone, he must see me this night. He could not went with you so much against my will to the Yest, till he had been told what he had done to play, and after sitting up with you, equally deserve the treatment I gave him.

against my will, till a very late hour? Treatment I give him ? a wretch ! Yet, per- This I have to say, madam, that I cannot haps, he has nothing new to say to me. I shall bear to be kept at this distance from you

under be very angry with him.

the same roof.

Under the same roof, sir !-How came you

Hear me out, madam-[letting go her trem

bling hands, and snatching them back again [As the lady could not know what Mr Love- with an eagerness that made her start]—I have

lace's designs were, nor the cause of his ill a thousand things to say, to talk of, relating to humour, it will not be improper to pursue the our present and future prospects ; but when I subject from his letter.

want to open my whole soul to you, you are alHaving described his angry manner of demand- ways contriving to keep me at a distance. You

ing, in person, her company at supper, he make me inconsistent with myself. Your heart proceeds as follows:]

is set upon delays. You must have views that

you will not own. Tell me, madam, I conjure 'Tis hard, answered the fair perverse, that I you to tell me, this moment, without subterfuge am to be so little my own mistress. I will meet or reserve, in what light am I to appear to you you in the dining-room half an hour hence. in future? I cannot bear this distance. The

I went down to wait that half hour. All the suspense you hold me in, I cannot bear. women set me hard to give her cause for this In what light, Mr Lovelace! [visibly territyranny. They demonstrated, as well from the fied.] In no bad light, I hope.- Pray, Mr nature of the sex, as of the case, that I had no- Lovelace, do not grasp my hands so hard [enthing to hope for from my tameness, and could deavouring to withdraw them.] Pray let me meet with no worse treatment, were I to be go. guilty of the last offence. They urged me vehe- You hate me, madam mently to try at least what effect some greater fa- I hate nobody, sirmiliarities than I had ever taken with her would You hate me, madam, repeated I. have; and their arguments being strengthened Instigated and resolved, as I came up, I wantby my just resentments on the discoveries I had ed some new provocation. The devil indeed, made, I was resolved to take some liberties, and, as soon as my angel made her appearance, crept as they were received, to take still greater, and out of my heart ; but he had left the door open, lay all the fault upon her tyranny. In this hu- and was no farther off than my

elbow. mour I went up, and never had paralytic so lit- You come up in no good temper, I see, Mr tle command of his joints, as I had, while I walk- Lovelace-But pray be not violent-I have done ed about the dining-room, attending her mo- you no hurt.-Pray be not violenttions.

Sweet creature ! and I clasped one arm about With an erect mien she entered, her face her, holding one hand in my other.—You have averted, her lovely bosom swelling, and the more done me no hurt.— I could have devoured her charmingly protuberant for the erectness of her but restraining myself-You have done me the mien. © Jack! that sullenness and reserve greatest hurt In what have I deserved the should add to the charms of this haughty maid ! distance you keep me at?-I knew not what to but in every attitude, in every humour, in every say, gesture, is beauty beautiful. By her averted She struggled to disengage herself.--Pray, face, and indignant aspect, I saw the dear inso- Mr Lovelace, let me withdraw. I know not lent was disposed to be angry--but by the fierce- why this is. I know not what I have done to ness of mine, as my trembling hand seized hers, offend you. I see you are come with a design I soon made fear her predominant passion. And to quarrel with me. If


would not terrify yet the moment I beheld her, my heart

me by the ill humour you are in, permit me to tardized ; and my reverence for the virgin puri- withdraw. I will hear all you have to say an

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have any

other time-to-morrow morning, as I sent you It was with a very ill grace that he complied, word.—But indeed you frighten me I beseech on that condition ; and at parting he kissed my you, if

value for me, permit me hand with such a savageness, that a redness reto withdraw.

mains upon it still. Night, mid-night is necessary, Belford. Sur- Do you not think, my dear, that I have reaprise, terror, must be necessary to the ultimate son to be incensed at him, my situation contrial of this charming creature, say the women sidered ? Am I not under a necessity, as it were, below what they will. I could not hold my pur- of quarrelling with him ; at least every

other poses. This was not the first time that I had time I see him? No prudery, no coquetry, no intended to try if she could forgive.

tyranny in my heart, or in my behaviour to him, I kissed her hand with a fervour, as if I would that I know of. No affected procrastination. have left my lips upon it.-Withdraw, then, Aiming at nothing but decorum. He as much dearest, and ever-dear creature. Indeed I en- concerned, and so he ought to think, as I, to tered in a very ill humour. I cannot bear the have that observed. Too much in his power: distance at which you so causelessly keep me. cast upon him by the cruelty of my relations. Withdraw, madam, since it is your will to with- No other protection to fly to but his. One plain draw; and judge me generously; judge me but path before us; yet such embarrasses, such difas I deserve to be judged ; and let me hope to ficulties, such subjects for doubt, for cavil, for meet you to-morrow morning early in such a uneasiness ; as fast as one is obviated, another temper as becomes our present situation, and to be introduced, and not by myself—know not my future hopes.

how introduced—What pleasure can I propose And so saying, I conducted her to the door, o myself in meeting such a wretch ? and left her there. But, instead of going down Perfect for me, my dearest Miss Howe, perto the women, I went into my own chamber, fect for me, I beseech you, your kind scheme and locked myself in; ashamed of being awed with Mrs Townsend ; and I will then leave this by her majestic loveliness, and apprehensive virtue, into so great a change of purpose, notwith- My temper, I believe, is changed. No wonstanding I had such just provocations from the der if it be. í question whether ever it will be letters of her saucy friend, founded on her own what it was.

But I cannot make him half so representations of facts and situations between uneasy by the change, as I am myself. See you herself and me.

not how, from step to step, he grows upon me?
-I tremble to look back upon his encroachments.
And now to give me cause to apprehend more

evil from him, than indignation will permit me [The lady (dated Sunday night) thus describes to express ! – my dear, perfect your scheme,

her terrors, and Mr Lovelace's behaviour, on and let me fly from so strange a wretch ! the occasion :)

Yet, to be first an eloper from my friends to

him, as the world supposes ; and now to be so On my entering the dining-room, he took my from him [to whom I know not !] how hard to hand in his, in such a humour, as I saw plainly one who ever endeavoured to shun intricate he was resolved to quarrel with me–And for paths ! But he must certainly have views in what?-What had I done to him?-I never in quarrelling with me thus, which he dare not my life beheld in anybody such wild, such own !-Yet what can they be?-I am terrified angry, such impatient airs. I was terrified; but to think of what they may be! and instead of being as angry as I intended to Let me but get from him !-As to my repube, I was forced to be all mildness. I can hard- tation, if I leave him—that is already too much ly remember what were his first words, I was wounded for me, now, to be careful about anyso frighted. But, You hate me, madam! you thing, but how to act so as that my own heart hate me, madam! were some of them-with such shall not reproach me. As to the world's cena fierceness- I wished myself a thousand miles sure, I must be content to suffer that—an undistant from him. I hate nobody, said I: 1 happy composition, however.-- What a wreck thank God I hate nobody-You terrify me, Mr have my fortunes suffered, to be obliged to throw Lovelace--letme leave you. The man, my dear, overboard so many

valuables, to preserve, inlooked quite ugly-I never saw a man look so deed, the only valuable !-A composition that ugly as passion made him look-And for what ? once it would have half broken my heart to think And he so grasped my hands !—fierce creature there would have been the least danger that I he so grasped my hands! In short, he seemed should be obliged to submit to. by his looks, and by his words, (once putting You, my dear, could not be a stranger to my his arms about me,) to wish me to provoke him, most secret failings, although you would not So that I had nothing to do but to beg of him tell me of them. What a pride did I take in the (which I did repeatedly) to permit me to with applause of every one !-What a pride even in draw; and to promise to meet him at his own supposing

I had not that pride !-Which contime in the morning.

cealed itself from my unexamining heart under

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