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returned, with languid feelings to my Inn. I ordered my dinner-green peas and a sweetbread--it had been a favorite dish with me in my childhood—I was allowed to have it on my birth days. I was impatient to see it come upon* table-but, when it came, I could scarce eat a mouthful-my tears choaked me. I called for wine-I drank a pint and a half of red wineand not till then had I dared to visit the churchyard, where my parents were interred.

The cottage lay in my way-Margaret had chosen it for that very reason, to be near the church-for the old lady was regular in her attendance on public worship-I passed onand in a moment found myself among the tombs.

I had been present at my father's burial, and knew the spot again-my mother's funeral I was prevented by illness from attending-a plain stone was placed over the grave, with their initials carved upon it-for they both occupied one grave.

I prostrated myself before the spot-I kissed the earth that covered them-I contemplated, with gloomy delight, the time when I should mingle my dust with their's-and kneeled, with

my arms incumbent on the grave-stone, in a kind of mental prayer-for I could not speak.

Having performed these duties, I arose with quieter feelings, and felt leisure to attend to indifferent objects.-Still I continued in the church-yard, reading the various inscriptions, and moralizing on them with that kind of levity, which will not unfrequently spring up in the mind, in the midst of deep melancholy.

I read of nothing but careful parents, loving husbands, and dutiful children. I said jestingly, where be all the bad people buried? Bad parents, bad husbands, bad children-what cemeteries are appointed for these? do they not sleep in consecrated ground? or is it but a pious fiction, a generous oversight, in the survivors, which thus tricks out men's epitaphs when dead, who, in their life-time, discharged the offices of life, perhaps, but lamely ?— Their failings, with their reproaches, now sleep with them in the grave. Man wars not with the dead. It is a trait of human nature, for which I love it.

I had not observed, till now, a little group assembled at the other end of the church-yard; it was a company of children, who were

gathered round a young man, dressed in black, sitting on a grave-stone.

He seemed to be asking them questionsprobably, about their learning-and one little dirty ragged-headed fellow was clambering up his knees to kiss him.-The children had been eating black cherries-for some of the stones were scattered about, and their mouths were smeared with them.

As I drew near them, I thought I discerned in the stranger a mild benignity of countenance, which I had somewhere seen before-I gazed at him more attentively

It was Allan Clare! sitting on the grave of his sister.

I threw my arms about his neck. I exclaimed "Allan"-he turned his eyes upon me- he knew me we both wept aloud-it seemed, as though the interval, since we parted, had been as nothing-I cried out "come, and tell me about these things."

I drew him away from his little friends-he parted with a show of reluctance from the church-yard-Margaret and her grandaughter lay buried there, as well as his sister-I took him to my Inn-secured a room, where we

might be private-ordered fresh wine-scarce knowing what I did, I danced for joy.

Allan was quite overcome, and taking me by the hand he said, "this repays me for all."

It was a proud day for me-I had found the friend I thought dead--earth seemed to me no longer valuable, than as it contained him; and existence a blessing no longer than while I should live to be his comforter.

I began, at leisure, to survey him with more attention. Time and grief had left few traces of that fine enthusiasm, which once burned in his countenance-his eyes had lost their original fire, but they retained an uncommon sweetness and, whenever they were turned upon me, their smile pierced to my heart.

“Allan, I fear you have been a sufferer." He replied not, and I could not press him further. I could not call the dead to life again.

So we drank, and told old stories-and repeated old poetry-and sang old songs-as if nothing had happened.-We sat till very lateI forgot that I had purposed returning to town that evening-to Allan all places were alike— I grew noisy, he grew cheerful-Allan's old manners, old enthusiasm, were returning upon

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him-we laughed, we wept, we mingled our tears, and talked extravagantly

Allan was my chamber-fellow that night—and lay awake, planning schemes of living together under the same roof, entering upon similar pursuits; and praising GOD, that we had met.

I was obliged to return to town the next morning, and Allan proposed to accompany me." Since the death of his sister," he told me, " he had been a wanderer."

In the course of our walk he unbosomed himself without reserve-told me many particulars of his way of life for the last nine or ten years, which I do not feel myself at liberty to divulge.

Once, on my attempting to cheer him, when I perceived him over thoughtful, he replied to me in these words :

"Do not regard me as unhappy, when you catch me in these moods. I am never more happy than at times, when, by the cast of my countenance, men judge me most miserable.

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My friend, the events, which have left this sadness behind them, are of no recent date. The melancholy, which comes over me with the recollection of them, is not hurtful, but only

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