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thou seest meet to change my station in the world, O fit me for it, so that in whatsoever situation I may be, thou mayest be glorified. Never leave me to be a reproach to religion, nor a stumbling-block to any of thy people. I desire to rely on thee for all I need. O take the throne of my heart, and let Jesus reign there for ever."

Her marriage took place on June 22d, 1779. In this new station, the God who had placed her in it, enabled her to acquit herself in a manner highly respectable. The incidents of a life spent in a very retired situation in the country, amid domestic cares and employments, could not be very varied. Providence was pleased very soon to deprive her of her first child; an affliction which she felt deeply, yet bore patiently. Her time was spent in a most inoffensive, quiet, prudent, and pious manner. In few stations is Christian prudence more necessary, than in that of a minister's wife in the country. Her behaviour in this character was singularly wise, and contributed both to the acceptance and usefulness of her husband's labours. She paid particular attention to the religious instruction both of her children and servants. She was naturally of a very modest and rather timid disposition; yet, she established a meeting of persons of her own sex, of whose piety she thought well, for prayer and religious conference; of which she continued a member till her death. Having acquired early a taste for reading, the leisure she possessed, was partly filled up with the perusal of good books. Like every saint, she "loved the habitation of God's house," and though possessed of a refined taste, she was not fastidious in her judgment of discourses: if they were but plain and evangelical, she relished them.

In August 1794, she was attacked with a painful disorder, by which she was reduced to extreme weakness, and was in imminent danger. Under this affliction, she manifested uncommon patience, but

always indulged the expectation of recovery. She was the reverse of an enthusiast; yet she said, the following Scripture was so impressed on her mind, that she could not help hoping to survive this distress: "The Lord hath chastened me sore, but hath not given me over to death." During this illness, she contracted a deafness which continued with her ever after.

Her recovery was but temporary. The seeds of disease lurked in her constitution, and they too soon arrived at a fatal maturity. The disease of which she died, was phthisis or consumption. She gradually became weaker and weaker, suffering comparatively little pain, except from the asthmatic symptoms of the disease. By gentle and almost imperceptible degrees, was her earthly house of this tabernacle taken down. She went down silently and slowly to the house appointed for all living. During the whole of her long illness, she manifested the most quiet resignation, and a cheerful, yet humble hope." I have no cause," said she one day, "to be weary of the world; I have, on the contrary, much to make me pleased with it; but I have long been willing to part with all my enjoyments; and," glancing her eye upward, " I had rather be yonder." "I She intimated that her affliction had been very useful to her, and that during it she had learned much that she had never before known. She looked out a great variety of promises, marked them in her Bible, and said, "These are my comforts." Though sometimes tempted to think all her religious experience delusion, she held fast the confidence and rejoicing of her hope." The following passage was peculiarly consolatory to her: "Thou shalt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee, because he trusteth in thee." From the commencement of her last illness, she seemed to consider herself as dying. It was remarked to her on one occasion, that some had been brought as low as she was, and yet had

recovered. "If such be the will of God," said she, " and his glory should be promoted by it, I have no objection; but I have a desire to depart, and to be with Christ." She declared to an intimate friend, that, in the view of eternity, she was resolved to venture on Christ in the promise; but added, “Oh, the unholiness of my heart unfits me for heaven!" "Oh," said she, laying her hand on her breast, "Oh, if you knew what is here!" knew what is here!" The following texts were peculiarly useful to her in the more advanced stages of her affliction. "If thou wouldst believe, thou shouldst see the glory of the Lord.""I will not leave thee comfortless." "Satan hath desired to have thee, that he might sift thee as wheat, but I have prayed for thee." She repeatedly said to her nearest relative," Be not peremptory for my life, but earnest for my salvation and my experience of the love of Christ. I am afraid," said she one evening," how I am to get over this night."The Lord is able," said a friend to her, "to carry you through."—"I know it," she replied, "and as willing as he is able.”

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Eight days before her death, Mr. Brown, after much hesitation about what was his duty, had gone to assist in dispensing the Lord's Supper to a neighbouring congregation. "I am glad," said she, when she heard it," that he is gone: when he is at his Master's work, the Lord will take care of me and the house." A very few days before her departure, she wished to look over a form of personal covenanting. After considering it carefully, with her dying and trembling hand she affixed her signature, saying, "I do this cheerfully, and with all my heart." As she was now very deaf, and her weakness scarcely allowed her to hold up a Bible, she employed her eldest son, the writer of this little memorial, to write out for her a list of the promises which she had marked in her Bible. This little list was constantly in her hand.

On the morning on which she died, she took an affectionate and solemn leave of her family. She often read over her list of promises, and pointing sometimes at one, sometimes at another, said, "Such a promise is sweet." About a quarter of an hour before she died, she was reading them; and noticing particularly that tender declaration, "I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee," she said faintly, "Oh, they are sweet!" After taking a survey of the whole, she said in a manner peculiarly pleasing, "Hath he said it, and will he not do it? Hath he promised it, and will he not make it good?" A near relative whispered, Can you now trust the promises?" She answered: "Guilt stares me in the face, but, through grace, I desire to trust the promises." A slight convulsion shook her frame; it was but for a moment, and her features settled into a tranquil smile. She expired June 8th, 1795. After her death, the list of promises was found on her breast, with her hand upon them.

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MRS. ELIZA BERRY.

MRS. ELIZA BERRY, the wife of the Rev. Joseph Berry, sometime Pastor of the dissenting church at Warminster, and now of London, was the youngest daughter of the Rev. Thomas Grove, formerly of Wooburn, in the county of Bucks, who was one of the six students expelled from the university of Oxford for praying, reading, and expounding the Scriptures. Descended from a family of great respectability, she had been favoured with a good education, and was not destitute of those elegant accomplishments which would have fitted her to shine in polite society. The event which was chiefly instrumental in her conversion, was the pious conversation of an amiable brother-in-law, who at the same time, and by the same means, succeeded in producing a permanent impression upon the mind of her sister. She was married to Mr. Berry in the year 1804; and after a lingering illness, expired Feb. 18, 1812, in the 37th year of her age.

Such are the few particulars which we have been able to gather of her history. But her character was of no ordinary stamp; and it is for the sake of laying this before our readers, that we have introduced the present brief memoir. We are indebted for the following interesting portrait of the christian wife and mother, to the pen of the Rev. William Jay of Bath, who preached a sermon on the occasion of her death, which has been printed.

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"The religion of this saint," says Mr. Jay, was not occasional; it did not depend upon particular seasons, and exercises, and occurrences. She was in the fear of the Lord all the day long; and acknowledged him in all her ways. No one loved the habi

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