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Far away from home he begged, in after dieting himself on a scanty the conventional manner, for alms allowance of seeds, and so reducing and food, and retiring with the his body to a skeleton, he concluded broken scraps that had been cast that physical prostration, or any into his begging pot, he seated but a rational treatment of the himself in a retired place, and, body, was attended with debility facing the east, ate without loath of the will and no elevation of the ing (for his purpose and passion mind; and, as the path of perfecwere strong) his first mendicant tion evidently did not lie that way, meal, so different from the re- he rejected the system of mortificapasts to which he had been accus. tion of the flesh. tomed.

The years of privation had no He resorted for instruction, as doubt brought this fruit, that they was natural, to the Brahman had tested his earnestness and priests, and hearkened to the expo enabled him to vanquish any ten. sition of their doctrines, but found dency to luxury or selfishness that little satisfaction therein ; for to his nurture in a palace might have him, in his ardent state, they pro- implanted in him. bably seemed cold and abstract. But being satisfied that Buddha· As there are traditional records hood was not to be reached through of Buddhas antecedent to Sakya, depravation of the body, but fragments of whose speech is incor- through enlightenment of the porated with orthodox Buddhist mind, he resumed his ordinary pilscriptures, we may suppose it grimages as a friar, and his simple possible that the works of these but sufficient fare. On proper diet earlier prophets were accessible to and a less unnatural mode of life he the new seeker after wisdom, and regained both his bodily strength that what he may have studied and mental vigour, but was demeant more to him than it did to serted by the disciples who had those of the learned class of the been attracted by the amazing Brahmans who were without his extreme of austerity which he had enthusiasm.

reached. As he pursued his pilgrimage he He now passed some time alone in acquired from certain Brahmans his hermitage, or under divers trees, instruction in the faculty of silent thinking out the problems which abstraction and contemplation of had disturbed him, and absorbed the Supreme Being, but could not in deep meditation. Temptations obtain from them the peace and assailed him, but his principles certainty he sought — that deep enabled him to withstand them, interior tranquillity which, as it is even the cowardly terrors of the said, was at that time already called Demon of Death. Nirvana.

Somehow his philosophy came Finding that by contemplation to him, with the solid conviction he arrived no nearer at the bodhi for which he had longed. He was or Buddhahood of which he was in enabled to penetrate into the first search, he devoted himself to the principles of things, as it seemed, vanquishment of Nature or con- and so to lay the foundation of a crete matter. Although not regard. practicable plan of life. ing as an end the austerities that “Having attained this inward subdue the force of the sense life, certainty of vision, he decided he spent six years in study and the to teach the world his truth. practice of the utmost extremes of He knew well what it would starvation and penance. At length, bring him,-what opposition, in. sult, neglect, and scorn. But he transmigrations and ever unsatisthought of three classes of men: fied unrest, these doctrines, prothose who were already on the way claimed without ceremony, were to the truth, and did not need intelligible to all. Women were him ; those who were already enrolled as disciples, and no man fixed in error, and whom he could was refused because he was a not help; and the poor doubters, pariah of the lowest caste. “The uncertain of their way. It was to Brahman is born of a woman, so is help these last that the Buddha the outcast ... My law is a went forth to preach.”

law of grace for all. My doctrine In himself he felt freed from the is like the sky. There is room for limitations of corporeal existence, all without exception-men, women, but for the sake of promoting the boys, girls, poor and rich.” This emancipation of others, he did not was a renovation of a truth pro. pass away into his higher state, claimed long before. “The man but directed his steps to the Deer who has learned to recognise all Park at Sarnath, where he unfolded beings in the supreme spirit and his principles, and first to those to the supreme spirit in all beings, whom he had been an offence by can henceforth look upon no his departure from his course of creature with contempt:” (Isaconsummate austerity. As they had Upanishad). followed him for his transcendent It matters little whether the mortification of the flesh, so it is new teacher obtained hints of his to be presumed that they were now philosophy from Brahman or Jain. attracted by the supremacy of his His true legacy was the infusion wisdom. In three months' kindly of a new earnestness into religion, instruction he succeeded in convert- so that one of the epithets that ing them.

has become attached to him, or to After this he preached in many any true follower of his, is, “ He places, in forests and groves, in that hath life.” palaces, by rivers, in gardens, in His doctrines all led in one cities. He visited Benares, and direction-conduct. Knowing how finally settled in the Jetavana at much happier we are ourselves in Sravasti, where a monastery was our earnest and unselfish moments built for him. His followers rapidly than when we are drifting down increased; he taught, by conver- the heavy stream of ennui, or sation only and precept, to the end seeking for a new pleasure with of his life, which reached the span an over-pleasured, enfeebled, and of eighty years.

yet feverish taste, we need not Disciples had clustered round wonder at the influence gained by in great numbers in these latter a man who had power to really years, and wherever the preacher rouse his hearers out of apathy went there followed him a crowd. and formality into vitality, or even A general proclamation of the into a wholesome fear, and could powerlessness of the world of sense succeed in stimulating them out of to satisfy the soul, a simple code of indulgence into conviction that in deeply-founded morality, a con- the abandonment of selfish purtinuous appeal to the law of suits lay the certain way of peace; kindness to all living things, an while, on the other hand, the entire disregard of caste and con- poorest person by becoming a stoic tempt for social distinctions as may win an individual conscioustrivialities in the face of the great ness of power. Buddha did not danger of continuance in wearisome expect anxieties to be laid down

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IN THIS WORLD :

A NOVEL.
By Mabel Collins, Author of "An Innocent Sinner,” &c.

Continued from page 153.

CHAPTER XXXII.

eat anything, and I was doing a ANGELS' VISITS.

little picture on commission, and it ERNESTINE's unceremonious de- isn't finished.” parture from the quaint confes. To this pathetic outcry Ernestine sional scene in which Coventry made an irrelevant answer. played the part of father confessor, “Come to the window; you meant that she was afraid of letting must bear the light for a moment, her feelings run away with her, and as I want to see your tongue.” that she intended to distract her Miss Armine submitted in mind by work as quickly as possible. silence. Ernestine only held the

It was a curious feature in her blind back a little. character, and known to scarcely “Coated with creamy fur-no anyone but herself, that this wonder you can't eat. You must apparently cold woman was fre- go to bed right off and leave quently driven to take such means pictures and commissions alone for to conquer the intensity of feeling the present.” which burned behind the calm In a quarter of an hour Miss exterior, and threatened to break it Armine was in bed, to her own down.

intense relief, in the character of a She went straight from the Sil. really sick person. She had held burn's house to Miss Armine's lodg- up her aching head and worried ings. She found that lady sitting about her pictures just as long as dolefully enough in the new rooms was possible; and now, when the which Dorothy had found for her. effort was becoming unbearable, The blinds were down, and the the doctor had come and told her little parlour looked dim and to lie down and give up the respongloomy.

sibilities of life. The release was “Will you excuse this dark as nearly pleasant as any sensation room ? ” said Miss Armine, rising could be to her in her present state; languidly from the corner of the and she laid her head upon the sofa in which she had been curled pillow in her darkened bedroom up; “my head aches so, I cannot with a sigh of thankfulness. bear the light."

“Don't spend too much of your Ernestine found her way in the time here, dear Dr. Ernestine,” she semi-darkness to the side of the said. “It is not worth your sofa.

while.” “And I am all over chills, and I “You must be well nursed,” said ache from head to foot; and I can't Ernestine gently, as she gave some finishing touches to her far as was possible, to lose thought arrangements.

of her own life and troubles in Miss Miss Armine raised her head in Armine's. Her struggles were horror, and started upon to her harder, her future was more doubtelbows in spite of her weariness. ful, than she let even Dorothy

“Nursed—oh no, indeed, I shall know. She was heavily handicapped want no nursing, I can't pay a at the beginning of her solitary nurse; and indeed, dear Dr. career. She was a woman, to begin Ernestine, I will be so good and with-a fact which, in England, take so much care of myself, I places a worker at a great disadshall not want a nurse.”

vantage. She was compelled by “ Very well,” said Ernestine, sheer lack of money to take obscure quietly, “you shall not have one if lodgings, instead of a house, in you don't wish it."

Wimpole-street; and her paying The promise pacified the girl, connection was so small that she for she had little idea of how ill began to feel her daily bread and she really was, or what skilled butter a matter of great concern. nursing she would require.

Indeed she knew that, unless some Ernestine had little time to think fresh opening came for her before of her own affairs after this. long, she would be in actual want.

She had Miss Armine's life in One day she heard that a househer hands, as she well knew, and surgeon was wanted at the hospital she was determined to save it. where she had so long worked.

“Ernestine,” said Dorothy, one She debated much whether to apply day when she found her by Miss Ar for the post, which would avert her mine's bedside ; “it is not right for immediate distress, as she would you to spend half your time here. have rooms in the hospital and a You are not attending to your own small salary. It required some interests.”

courage to go back among her old “Typhoid," was Ernestine's some- colleagues and brave all the gossip what oracular reply,“ depends more which her applying for such a post than any known disease on good would cause. She put the idea nursing. I think I am attending aside for a day or two, and gave to my own interests in properly unremitting attention to her few looking after a case like this. I patients. But they were so few, dare not trust any but a very good and her connection showed so little nurse with her now; but I find sign of increasing, that she could it will be necessary for some one to not let the opportunity slip altostay with her while I am obliged gether. So one day she left to be away, as I sometimes am.” Dorothy to take charge of Miss

“I will do that,” said Dorothy; Armine, whose course of fever had “I shall just enjoy it. I was born not yet run out, and walked to the to be a nurse; I only want a little hospital. training, and this will just be an She was welcomed with great opportunity for me.”

courtesy by her old friends. Dr. And so these two women (neither Vavasour "Doldy was something of whom, by the way, could rightly more than Dr. Vavasour had been. afford to do it) gave their time and She had entered the aristocracy of their brains and their hearts to medicine, and was respected accord. Miss Armine; watching her night ingly; and her proposal was evi. and day, and nursing her through dently looked on with favour, though the fever and delirium.

with some surprise, until she made Ernestine was indeed glad, so it known that she would expect to

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