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-the attentions he had shown? Nothing. He was cast off, set aside, he and his worktables, and his writing-tables together; he also felt an additional gêne from his servants; they even passed these packages without noticing them he saw it was all false, all unnatural.

Thus in an inextricable labyrinth of error and regret, he yet felt an evident tendency to have the matter righted. He walked through his rooms, and his taste was changed; he saw their deficiencies; he now wished them to be like hers-that soft luxuriant look,-her sweet dominion! Thus did he betray the thoughts that flocked thick in his mind; particular scenes, sentiments, and incidents; when the strong passions were tamed down-irritations softened his very state of existence a paradise.

He could not, then, shut his mind to the fact, that something rested on his part to be

done to regain this lost point of happiness. But what could he do? what was the best expedient, which the shortest path to prove that he was right? the clearest test that her love was such, that it never could be mistaken ?

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The one he decided on has been shown. The letter cost him little labour, the pen once taken in his hand; the making up his mind to place it there, was a work of painful difficulty. Once there, the superior bearings of his mind burst forth,-the excesses of his love : with a vivid touch he told his "flattering tale," softened, rounded off, subdued, excused. Once admitted, however, his doom was fixed. It has been said, Miss Aylmer read no further than to where he confessed the fact; perhaps, had she done so, she might have been misled; as it was, it stood a capital crime in her estimation, and she stopped. The calumniated Raleigh came from trial the most admired

and adored of men :

So

my hero was not

fortunate; he was fully committed,

sentenced, cast off, hanged, drawn, and quar

tered.

CHAPTER XIV.

Do not mistake the nature of that affection, and think it of a kind that you may with impunity abuse. It is not natural affection, there being in reality no such thing; for, if there were, some inward sentiment must necessarily and reciprocally discover the parent to the child, and the child to the parent, without any exterior indications, knowledge or acquaintance whatsoever; which never happened since the creation of the world, whatever poets, romance or novel writers, and such sentiment-mongers, may be pleased to say to the contrary.

CHESTERFIELD'S Letters.

I HAVE piqued myself so far, on explaining more fully than novel writers generally do, the feelings and sensations of their victims; but I confess it is beyond the little stock of my power to give an idea of the utter dislo

cation of every hope, nerve, and joint of Mr. Waldegrave when he received Miss Aylmer's answer to his letter. So cool, so calm, yet so firm; there was no loop-hole left for him to shoot through one more arrow; it was done,—— the full force of the blow was struck at oncemercifully struck, for it so completely stunned him, that he was long lost to all feeling and sensation.

But the mind will recover itself as well as the body. Visions of the imagination will again break out; desires of the heart, long lain dormant, will push forth and be born again; the like enthusiasms, the same emotions; indignation softened, wrath overcome; all dispersed, all evaporated, all gone; save the temple of the human frame-the heart! that still stands the same: the same wants, the same vanities, the same desires, the same craving to be filled : -old recollections, new passions, something:its warmth, its energy ever leading to excess;

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