IN THE MOUNTAINS. Fatigued of heart, and owning how the world Which strikes from off the mountain toward the West. I hoped to lull a fretted heart to sleep, And in the place of definite thought a sense Possessed me, dim and sweet, of Motherhood, The breasts of Nature, warmth, and soothing hands, And tender, inarticulate nursing-words Slow uttered o'er tired eyes. But suddenly Rude waking! Suddenly the rocks, the trees And all cried out on me "Away with him! Away! He is not of us, has no part In ours or us! Traitor, away with him!" And the birds shrilled it "Traitor," and the flowers Stared up at me with small, hard, insolent eyes. But I, who had been weak, was weak no more, Nor shrank at all, but with deliberate step Moved on, and with both hands waved off the throng, And feared them not, nor sent defiance back. Thus, till the pine-glooms fell away, and goats Went tinkling and no herd-boy near; glad airs Upon the solitary heights; the sky Held not a cloud from marge to marge; and now Went past I know not. When again time was, A vision of great glories, held the West, And through them, and beyond, the hyaline Led the charm'd spirit through infinite spaces on. I think of all the men upon this earth The sight was mine alone; it for my soul, My soul for it, until all seeing died. Where did I live transfigured? through what times Of heaven's great year? What sudden need of me For sacrifice on altar, or for priest, For soldier at the rampart, cup-bearer At feasts of God, rapt singer in the joy Of consonant praise, doom'd rebel for the fires? When the body took Its guest once more the clouds were massy-grey, In the dimness every pine tree bowed to me With duteous service, and the rocks lay couched Like armed followers round, and one bird sang The song I chose, and heavy fragrance came From unseen flowers, and all things were aware One passed who had been called and consecrate. "THE TOP OF A HILL CALLED CLEAR." (In sight of the Celestial City.) And all my days led on to this! the days Of pallid light, of springs no sun would warm, Of chilling rain autumnal, which decays High woods while veering south the quick wings swarm, The days of hot desire, of broken dreaming, Mechanic toil, poor pride that was but seeming, And bleeding feet, and sun-smit flowerless ways. Below me spreads a sea of tranquil light, No blue cloud thunder-laden, but pure air Shot through and through with sunshine; from this height A man might cast himself in joy's despair, And find unhoped, to bear him lest he fall, Swift succouring wings, and hands angelical, And circling of soft eyes, and foreheads bright. |